i envision my mental as a home
its theme runs monochrome
with splashes of erratic colour
that fades in and out with time
and up until now
i still can't find a safe place
in this dome of mine
i embellish its four walls
with memories that make me recall
all the moments that define and make me
but when the colour disappears
the warmth of the room neutralizes
until one day
it is tipped with a negative
that becomes negatives
that don't care that i'm sensitive
and are credited
by steps they take downward into the spiral of my mind
my dome
knows
no
time
or
space
and spreads with a harsh grace
that has no time for confinement
and knows no limits to its leeway
it's in the here and now
and in this now
it seems to allow
all my demons in
their smiles are beaming
as they've suddenly been allowed into
------'s inn
like a holiday
they relax
on the beds in my room
hoping this night doesn't end anytime soon
they whistle a tune
that echoes through this haunted cocoon
but like always
the sun must rise
and bring alive
everything that is bright
and the sunshine revives
the dead as the others scutter for their lives
they wait and remain somewhere in my mental
like neglected housewives
until the next time
i give them a piece of my mind
you'll never see the battle that goes on inside
this web of mine.
my face will always be graced with a smile
as i try and ignite the one on your profile.
feeding off of friendly energy
hoping that this timeless cycle will become a memory
and as i look at them
i wonder if the sun is up
if their dome is bright
filled with sunlight
and an explosion of colours
that makes them feel alright
that they feel as if can grasp this freedom that is their birthright
and that the happiness they know is not only what you can gain with eyesight
so don't get uptight
about being pressured to be upright
because there might be trip ups and oversights
that we can't fix overnight
that are thrown back in our faces
by the ones we love as we try to build are bases
our foundations shaky
but its alright
you'll be fine
and i'll be fine
in this still sunset life
of
mine
