the first time i had a place to call my own,
i splattered the walls with purple,
my eleven year old heart elated
i was a big girl
with big girl problems
and curiosities.
nothing could stop me,
in this royal purple room.
my body had a mind of its own,
laid in the bed of my purple room
my hands roam
my eyes read
my mind imagines
me in different scenarios
with a lover
with a foe
and it plagues my mind all the time
in this dark purple room.
loneliness crept along
the white sideboards of my purple room
the right side of me
as i paced my room
littered with clothes and
fatty food packaging
my books slept in the corner
on a break
from breaking my confidence.
in my purple room
laid a mirror,
two actually,
'mirror mirror
tell me words of love
so i don't wish
my skin were light like a dove
my body light like its feathers.'
'mirror mirror
in my purple room
tell me im not too flamboyant
for the one who is destined to love me
tell me my words are not mean
tell me im filled with love
filled to the brim
tell me that what i think is not a lie
and that people love me
and that these spurs of insecurity
are all underneath the heel of my feet.'
'mirror mirror
in my purple room
don't let these thoughts consume me
don't watch me wither and fade
away.'
'mirror mirror
in my purple room
i really hate that you're the only one who sees me
cry
call
yell
laugh
sigh
sing
doubt
you know all my faces
you're my occasional lover.'
'mirror mirror
in my purple room
tell me that they're more faces
ive yet to see
the ones i'll hate
and hate to love.'
mirror mirror, in my purple room, oh how I have too much faith in you; to tell me the truth, when i tell myself lies.
