Let Us Learn How To Love Together

Careing For Him

Levi’s POV~

“Don’t ever be sorry for making someone worry, making me worry. You are important, and special, don’t Ever forget that! And I’ll Always be here for you, alright!”

I pulled him into another hug and I felt him nod. He started to cry and I rubbed circles on his back in an attempt to comfort him. I don’t want to let go of him, I never, ever want to let go, I don’t want him to be hurt anymore. I want to make him safe, I want him to live a normal teenage life, free of hurt. He pulls away from the embrace and I cup his face, wiping the tears off of his face. I never noticed, but he looks really beautiful, even though he has been crying, he still looks perfect. I slide my hand down his face, my thumb gently touching his bottom lip. I wonder what they would… I jerk my hand away and turned away, I could feel myself blushing. Why did I think that? What is wrong with me?! Am… Am I feeling something… for this boy?! I look up at him and am instantly concerned. His face was really pale, and he looked like he was going to faint.

“Are… are you okay? You look a bit pale.”

He opened his mouth as if to say something, but nothing came out. I saw his eyes roll back into his head and I instantly grabbed him, preventing him from hitting the floor. I carry him to the nearest cot and laid him down on it. He started snoring softly and I smiled. I walked over to my desk, sitting behind it and began to do some work. No mater how hard I tried I couldn’t stop myself from thinking about him. I just, I want to be the one to protect him. I want to care for him, like no one ever has for him before. Wait… What the hell am I thinking! He’s a kid, I’m an adult. It’ll never work… Wait… Don’t think about it, shut up. Great now I’m telling myself to shut up. I sigh and try to focus on my JOB. A few kids came in, some feeling sick, one got cut in ceramics class, nothing to serious. It was around 11:00 and I was getting worried. It’s been alittle over three hours since Ryan fainted. I heard him grunt, I got up and started walking towards him. He turned his head so that he was facing me. I couldn’t tell if he was awake or asleep. I crouched beside him and brushed a stray hair out of his face. He looked so peaceful. I opened his eyes and I fell back, landing on my butt. He laughed so I gave him a dirty look, only making him laugh even more. He swung his legs to the side of the cot and sat up. I casually sat next to him, fiddling with my fingers. I feel so nervous, and I don’t know why! I never get nervous, so why now? I could feel his eyes on me so I turned to face him. He quickly looked down at his feet. After a moment he shook his head and covered his face with his hands. Is he okay? I should probably ask.

“Are you feeling alright?”

He turned to face me, his face was bright red, like, his whole face. He goes to say something but I cut him off.

“Oh my gosh! your face is beat red!”

I quickly pressed the back of my hand against his forehead, he didn’t have a fever, that’s good.

“You’re not running a fever. Maybe you’re just overwhelmed?”

He laughs and buried his face back in his hands. Maybe he’s flustered… by what? Could it be by me… wait! No! Stop thinking like that! He’s prison! Wait… the legal age of consent is 17 isn’t it? He’s 17… Oh My God STOP. I groan and he looks at me.

“What’s wrong?”

I sigh, of course he asked.

“Nothing, just thinking about, alot of stuff, at the moment”

He grabbed my hand and I looked at him. He looked genuienly concered. I looked down at his lips then back up at his eyes. I swear I’m going crazy. He bites his bottom lip, I feel a drop of sweat forming on my forehead. I don’t understand what’s going on, I don’t understand what I’m feeling. I just don’t know…

Stop Thinking…

I place my hand on his cheek and his eyes flutter close. I close my eyes as well and slowly lean in. Soon I feel his hot breath on my mouth and I quickly close the distance. His lips feel so soft, and they fit perfectly with mine. My mind went completely blank and soon, alittle to soon for me, I pulled away and to catch my breath. I’m the first to open my eyes. I watch is expression carefully, He looked so, peaceful, like if he opened his eyes he’d forget the moment. Eventually he opened his eyes, slowly, His eyes found mine and we stared into eachothers eyes for what felt like an eternity. I slowly removed my hand off of his face. I really have no idea what just happened, like, why did I do this? What the fuck is wrong with me!? I feel something sliding down my face. Ryan lifted his hand and wiped the tear off of my cheek. I grab his hand and pull him into another kiss. He wraps his arms around my neck, and I placed my hands on his waist. Once again, it felt like we kissed forever. This time he pulled away, looking down at his feet and blushing. He had a small smile on his face and I felt my chest warm up. I pulled him into my chest and he hugged me like his life depended on it. I’m not exactly sure what is going on right now, but, I think I’m going to try… try to let someone in for once. That’s if he wants the same thing.

“Ryan?”

I spoke softly and he looked up at me, his smile falling.

“Uhm… well… about what just happened… I uhm…”

I placed my hand on the back of my neck and chuckled nervously. I have no idea what I’m doing, or what to say. What the heck, I need to man up.

“Ok, listen… I’m not sure on what is going on, or how exactly I feel, but I know that I care for you, alot, like, I just, I don’t know how to explain it. I feel like I’d like to get to know you better. I was wondering how you felt… about… me”

I whispered the last part and he looked shocked, but his expression quickly softened.

“I… am unsure of how I feel about you, but I also feel like I’d like to get to know you… I want to know things about you that no one else knows… I’ve honestly never really cared for anyone except my sister and mother. But… I’m not sure, but I think I might care… about you… alittle bit anyway… But I definetly don’t want to rush anything.”

His blush spread all the way up to his ears, and it was cute. I smiled at him but then looked away awkwardly.

“You uhm, should probably get to class now… I’ll uh… write you a pass…”

I got up and walked over to the desk, he followed close behind me. I wrote him a pass and smiled at him before he smiled back, rushing out of the office. I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding. I can’t believe that just happened… I can’t believe I’m actually feeling something… I actually care for someone, and they care about me, at least he said he cared… Anyway… What am I going to do, there’s a nine year difference. Not to mention, he’s a student, and I’m the school nurse! I could get fired if anyone finds out… that’s if they find out though… I’m going to cross that bridge when I get there, for right now, I’m going to try to stop thinking so much for once, and just go with what my heart wants. And right now, my heart wants to protect Ryan.

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Hey y’all, I know it’s alittle soon for them to be kissing, but I just started to write it because my heart wanted me to, so I went with it. I think it turned out pretty well! Anywho! How are y’all likeing the story so far? I’m like, actually putting so much into this that I’m Really proud of how this is turning out. I’m going to go to bed now, I wrote like 5 chapters in one day and it’s really late at night so I’m going to head to bed now, goodnight and don’t forget to vote and comment if you enjoy this story! Bai for now my lovelies~

Ps. This actually didn't turn out that short, I. Am. Shook! Anyway, I swear I'm going now, BAI!