The life of a madman

I can't do this any more. He's coming and I can't stop him. It's funny actually. Everyone thinks they can help me. They can't. I just wanted to fit in, I just wanted to mean something to someone but I guess that that's not happening anytime soon. To say my life was or is easy is a lie. They can all get fucked, just stay to true to you. Everybody has a private world that they can be alone. Are you trying to reach me. Didn't think so. Wear me shoes and live my life. Feel my pain. Do what I've done and see what I've seen. See how you turn out. I've been too long on my own. Are you calling me? Or is that the other? I believe that you have to lose it all to realise what you can't live without. I was never welcome here. I'm not like him. I will never be like him! Don't you tell me that. I can tell when someone is lying. They are all lying. I would rather die then do it your way! I don't need help, I never have and I never will. I've been here long enough to realise that no one wants to help. No one cares. No one would help even if I asked. No, but I never would ask. Oh, if you could see through my eyes. Would you hold me close? Or would you just laugh and leave me like everyone else? You can see when I need help. Yet if I needed help would you help me? When he comes only you can stop him. He won't hurt you. None of us would every hurt you. The other one likes to see me suffer, the next one is a sick prick and likes to do the un-speakable. I've tried all my life to make peace, be friends and not fuck up every time. I was born to lose so I will die to win. Don't let them in I keep saying. Just keep to your self. I can't do this any more. I can't pretend that I care anymore. I don't have a choice. I never have. I'm scared. When I lose control, I lose control. I can't do anything. All I can do is sit and enjoy the show. He took everything away from me. He is the reason that I am like this. But I'm not like him. I will never be like him. I need someone to help me out but everyone's already packed up and left me. It's too late for me. I've gone too far to be brought. I've lost everything and everyone I've ever loved. So still wanna be me? We can trade shoes. I feel your pain and you can feel mine. We can look in each other's minds. You can see my pain. You can see the things I've seen. Don't let anyone ever tell you to change it act different. Be proud if who you are. Even if it makes you mad or crazy. After all, we are all mad. There is no hiding it. I still believe that you gotta leave everything to find out what you don't wanna leave behind

Well that's it for today guys. I hope you found that interesting, but if not let me know what you think about it.

If your wondering if any of that is related to me. All I'm gonna say us that it would be no fun to tell you that now would it?