The life of a madman

The life of a madman 8

If I wasn't here tomorrow would anyone know? Course they would. I know I'm a mess, I just wanna be normal. So don't remind me of it. I try to be different. I try to be happy. I am always trying. I get that you want me to change for the better. Believe me. I am trying. I'm trying to forget what has happened over the years. Can you help me forget? I don't want to be like this anymore. I want to be normal. All the chances that have passed me by. Would it matter if I have it one more try? Course it would. You will never hear me ask for help. This is my choice. I'm like this by my own doing. And if I could change it..... I'm not sure if I would. If I could change anything in my world, I don't know what I would change. They push me till I break and I'm about to go off the edge. There killing me slow but I'm not ready to die. Inch by inch they drive me. I try to evade but since everyone BUT you are trying, I'm just seeking shelter from the raging storm. But I've come to terms with it. But this is my legacy. This is what I'm leaving behind. Don't change to fit in. Don't bend to someone's will. Don't do what they tell you to do. I'm a freak naturally. Just the way I wanna be. Im falling through the cracks. Can I ever come back? Dreaming of the way it used to be. Back to the days were he wasn't around. Were I could be free. We're I could be ME. Instead of him telling me what to do. Tomorrow could be one day too late. Don't do what I have done. Win we're I have lost. Have we're I have none. Don't let your demons drive. You can't unlive the pain. You can't rewind to yesterday. The time is gonna come. When we will wake up and realise how fast time goes by. I hope the best is yet to come. You might never find your place in the time that remains. We are living fast and dying young. Boom. Dead. Going straight to hell. I'm going home. This isn't a goodbye. Just a.... seeya later.