The life of a madman

The life of a madman 10

It literally feels like a lifetime ago. But I still remember it like it was just yesterday. Michael, you saved my life on countless occasions. Jack, although you rarely stood up for me and what not, thank you. Jacob, your the best brother a man could ask for. And John, my old friend. How could I ever thank you all?

I could've been whatever the fuck I wanted to be. Or could i still? Fuck you, I won't do what you tell me!! I will never back down because...whats the point? It doesn't hurt like it used to. I just don't care. But who the fuck are you to tell me what I feel? What I'm capable of? You have no idea of what I can do or of the things I've done. So there's the fucking door, walk out of it!! Get the fuck out. But they decided to say? Why?

I've been thinking. What if she hated me? Would it be easier for her? Would it still hurt her like it would? Would she even listen? Hahah I guess it doesn't fucking matter now. Or did it ever? Why has my heart gone so cold? Or was it always like this?

Welcome into the mind of a
Madman!! Please we hope you enjoy your stay and please don't talk to the mentally deranged that you may find inside.

I don't know what your all so worried about. There's nothing to worry about, EVERYTHING will go to plan. You just need some patients and persistence. We tend to get off track but with those two attributes I will get to the point. And the point of this is? I have no fucking clue. Maybe..... Maybe you could help me? But, the amount of times I've asked that and the amount of times I've been told "no". I'm glad they said no, because of that I'm doing it on my own. So many promises made. I tried ya know? But no you don't fucking know because you never took the fucking time to ask me "hey, what's going on in your world" oh you know just the usual nothing special.

I'll be honest everyone tells me I'm good at this shit. That I could have a future in it if I do more and expand. I don't know if I'm want to or if I have to, so I write. And when I write I write from my heart. Some of it I mean, some I write for the hell of it. I don't know if I'm "good" at this or not. But I'll give it my best shot before I decide to put he pen down