Feel My Heart Stop Beating (SkyMU)

Chapter 14

-Jerome's POV-

When was the last time Adam had recorded with us? I don't know, but it was about time. I trudged up to his room.

Yes, I was expecting him to be in there, but I wasn't really expecting Jason to be in there with him. They didn't seem like very good friends.

What I wasn't okay with was the fact that they were all over each other. I mean, could it at least have been skylox?

When they saw me in the bedroom, Jason blushed an embarrassing shade of crimson. Adam swallowed hard and opened his mouth to speak, but Jason interrupted him.

"No, Adam, we can't explain. We're in love, and one of our best friends ought to know. Secrets should never be kept under this roof."

I looked at the two of them with raised eyebrows and smiled.

"The skylox fans will be mad," I taunt.

"Well the skylox fans aren't gonna know," Adam declares, getting up off the bed, "because only we'll know."

I laugh to myself. If only they knew I was in love with Mitch, I think, then they wouldn't be alone.

I left the room and let them continue what was started. Hopefully nothing too intimate happens...

I waddled over to the couch and plopped down, thinking of Mitch. Yeah, we're the largest team crafted ship, but Mitch doesn't support it. That makes me sad.

I laid down and closed my eyes, dreaming of him. The one and only young man who could set my heart on fire, the only one who I could love. I'm sinking deeper into sleep when a body plops down next to mine. I know it's Mitch even with my eyes still closed.

"Hey biggums."

"Hey," I mumble. I'm so tired.

"Ooh bby can we snuggle?" he excitedly jokes. I laugh and nod.

"Aah yusss snuggle time!"

We both laugh and he cradles me. My breath hitches in my throat, and he notices. Instead of asking me whats wrong he just nuzzles his head into the crook of my neck. His fluffy hair tickles my cheek.

Without thinking, I press my lips on top of his head. He looks up at me and then at my lips, but doesn't kiss them.

Of course, Jerome, why would he kiss someone like you? Of all people, Mitch would never kiss you.

My eyes start to water as the hopeless thought grows larger in my mind. Mitch? Kissing me? Not likely.

But, it's not impossible. Here he is right now. He looked at them. He considered it. But he stopped himself.

"Mitch?" I ask.

"Mmhm?"

"What's your biggest fear?"

"Ah. There's a couple of things, but i'm most afraid of humiliation. Public is pretty bad, but the biggest and scariest type to me is relational humiliation.

"Let's say I liked someone but they didn't like me back. I take a risk and tell them, or I try to kiss them. Boom. Automatically ruins the relationship. Wait, Jerome? What's wrong? Why are you crying?" (A/N: when I wrote "jerome" my fingers missed the 'r' and the 'o' and it spelled "jeepome" and idk it's just hilarious xD i'm retarded)

I don't know, Mitch. Why aren't you? Don't you see? I love you. It's right there in front of your eyes.

"Jerome! Jesus Christ, what did I do? I-it's okay. Don't cry. Please," he begged.

I just sat there shivering and I clutched his stomach. He got scared for me now. I don't blame him.

"Jerome, i'm here for you. I lo- i'm your friend," he stutters.

Did he just almost say he loved me?

I shook the thought off and cried into his shirt. I'm really mad at myself for crying like that. He's not supposed to know how weak I really am.

-=-

I wake up to someone snoring. Mitch. I laugh and bop his nose. He is so adorable.

"Hhmmrph? Wait, what? What time is it?" he groans.

"2:37, silly."

"But it's dark outside."

"2:37 am. All the guys are asleep, but i'm as hyper as anything," I giggle.

"I kind of am too. Haha. Juuust kidding," he says, falling back down onto the pillow.

"Mitch?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I be really stupid for like a second?"

"It's not like you already are," he laughs.

"Ouch. But anyways, I love you." I smile crazily. It felt good to express myself.

"And do you know what my favorite little bacca? I love you too."

My cheeks blush as I stare at his lips. He looks at mine. Maybe if I just lean in a little, he'd kiss me. He looks embarrassed and expectant. Maybe he's waiting for me to kiss him first? I'm putting too much thought into this.

Ever since I met Mitch, he started to peel back my layers. With the kind of person I am, you really have to dig deep. A lot of people have just left me, uninterested in my life. They were too impatient to discover what was really underneath, too bored with my outer appearance.

I'm always rejected, always pushed away because I don't look interesting. They don't get it. They don't care. It's not that hard to love me! Please just understand.

Mitch understands.

That's what controls my love for him. That's what drives my intense passion, my bravery in loving another man. I don't care what others think, even if no one notices. At least we have the merome shippers to support us.

What a weak foundation.

Just kidding.

Mitch finally woke up and stood up off the couch, leaving a warm indentation. He left without a word, and I expected a silence, but instead I heard a thump. As I rolled over on my stomach, I saw something that made the color drain out of my face.

Mitch was in a crumpled heap on the floor.

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That long enough? I hope.

I saw jason on its jerry and harry's server yesterday :D

I got a good screenshot of him standing alone on the bridge in the skyblock area.

I was fangirling pretty hard considering it was my first youtuber encounter.

Also, a video Adam posted on his instagram about his fans made me cry and it was really inspiring. I love him, because we're both empathetic and we love people.

If you play MC on a desktop, PM me and we can do some stuf. Internet friends.

Emily, OUT.

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