Indecisions

Shock to the system {Part 1}

A/n listen to these songs to make the chapter more effective:

Say something (I'm giving up on you)- A Great big world ft Christina Aguilera

How to save a life- the fray.

I will put one song in the video link so you can listen to it

Also I've changed who I want Dana to be. I've change him to the picture at the side or if your on Any 'Apple i' products or android the i button in the right hand corner.

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Roxanne's POV

"Table for two please" I told the young waiter at Mickey's Diner.

Portia and I had decided to go to the diner to talk and not go straight to either of our house because, her house was packed with all her younger brothers and sisters running around screaming. And my house had her worst enemy in it. So the dinner was the best place to be. We needed some privacy to talk about this; away from everyone that we know. Just Portia and I.

It's as if the waiter read my mind, as she had seated us right in the far corner of the restaurant. We sat down and read out orders out to the young waiter, and she walked away as soon as she got what we wanted to eat.

Time to get down to business.

"So Portia." I started raising one eyebrow and smirking at her. "What is it with you and my evil brother?"

She frowned and turned away from me. She always does that when she hurt or hiding something. "It's a long, long story" she sighed.

I sat forward in my chair and crossed my arms, while leaning on the table. "I have time... And the reason we came to this diner was for a private place to talk."

"Yeah... I guess, but while I'm telling you don't interrupt it's so long... Long, long-"

"its a long story, I know" I gave her a playful smile to show that I was joking, but my silliness was not very suitable for the occasion

"AND! It might come as a shock to you... And lastly" she said looking up at me "please don't hate me" she whispered.

I stared at her with shock "Portia you think I'm going to hate you when you tell me what's really going on between you and Dana?!" I said with a hurt expression.

"Yep" she whispered. I'd never seen her so fragile and so vulnerable. She was always the loud one out of the two of us. I'd normal be the quiet one. But this girl knew how to keep her secrets to herself. It's like she's made a barrier in front of herself. Not allowing other people to get to know her. She always shows the loud, happy side. But on the inside she was so sad and depressed and it upsets me, as well as her.

"I'm going to tell you know before I change my mind" she said sitting up straight in her chair and taking a deep breath.

"I'm all ears" I said

"Ok... It all started at the end of 2012. You and Mason had been together for a month, and you were so cute together. The way you used to hold hands when you walked down the corridor, when he used to wait for you after every class, and when you would look for him after his training had finished, he would sneak up behind you and hug you from behind and whisper how much he loved you in your ear. You would giggle and get really embarrassed and snuggle into his chest. He would kiss you in front of everyone. He was never ashamed to have you as his girlfriend. But while all this was going on I would be there standing right next to you. Looking like the best third-wheel of the century. Sometime's you would just walk of and leave me. Alone. And I admit It I was jealous. Anyway, when you did realise that I was with you we would always hang out at your house. As you know my house it's full to the brim with annoying, whiny little kids. That just got in the way of every thing. Your house was always the best place to go. There was no one there accept from You, me and...Dana. Dana would always be at the house when we were there and he would always come into your room and talk, well more like argue with us. When he came in he'd always give me these sneaky little winks and sly smirks. And me being the pathetic sophomore I was, I had a enormous crush on Dana. In the eyes of a 16 year old girl, Dana is like a Greek God. Everything he did used to make my heart flutter... Ridiculous. I know.