Broken Doctor | Connor Rhodes 'discontinued'

Part 7; ...

I wake up, in a strange room, with my clothes from last night on the floor, oh god, what have I done, did I ditch Connor? Did I sleep with someone else? I drank didn't I? I've been sober for a couple of years, what have gotten myself into. I get up with the blanket around me, I still have by bra and panties on. I walk out of the room into the kitchen.

"Hey Alex"

I turn round let out a scream, "Jesus, will!"

"Hah! Your uniform is in He bathroom and breakfast is made, remember, we're talking later"

What the hell is he talking about? What did we do, why's my uniform here, what are we talking about?, "Uhh.. Will, why am I here, half naked, in your bed, and what are we talking about?"

"You don't remember anything do you?" Will asks confusedly.

"Uhhh.... no... what did I do?"

"Well, you called me in the middle of the night crying about Jay and you were cursing at Connor, then you tell me you had a miscarriage, then you fall asleep in my car, when I brought you home, you kissed me, and took all of your clothes off, and wouldn't stop, so I just walked out of my bedroom, and locked you in it"

I look at him, with no emotion, I told him, no one knows, only Jay and my brother, oh god, what have I done.

"Alex, we're talking about this later, get dressed and I'll drive us to Med"

I walk out of the room towards the toilet, well, I guess he knows. I wash my face, and put my hair up in a messy bun. I then get on my uniform, I still don't know what I'm going to say to Connor, I don't actually even remember what I said to him.

I walk out of the bathroom, and take a bite of the pancake that was left for me, "Let's go will, chop chop, lives to save" I shout at him. He comes out of his room with his uniform on, and a Chicago med coat, it's actually really nice.

"Oi, where'd you get the coat?" I say to him, whilst walking out've the apartment, waiting for the elevator.

"Got it custom made, I'll send you the embroidery shops number" he tells me, "You know Alex, well have to talk about Jay, and the baby?"

How I miss that baby so much, Jay is just an ass, leaving me for the schools slut, "Yeah" I say nicely, trying my hardest to keep the voice, "later, I promise".

"Okay" he answers, while both of us are getting in the car.

[Time Lapse]

We get to med and walk in together, "Sup Mags" we both say in sync and laugh, we both go up to the doctors lounge to put our things away.

"You know Alex, I've missed you, I'm glad your back" he announces.

"I've missed you too will" I respond with a bring smile on my face.

"Well I'll see you later, I'll take you to my place, then we can talk, then I'll leave you back to yours, deal?"

"Deal", ugh I don't want to tell Will everything, it's so heart breaking, I guess he kinda has the right to know, as it was his nephew, but it's just so hard, I've been diagnosed with depression since I was 18, but I just forgot about it, thought that it would go away on its own, it won't, I just feel so down, helpless, I don't eat most of the time and, I was so close to cutting once, but I stopped, I couldn't go through with it, if I couldn't fix myself, maybe I could help fix others. I might talk to Doctor Charles some day, maybe he can help, I act all calm and nice, but inside, I feel worthless, and guilty for letting My baby die, it was all my fault, if I would've been careful, got checked out regularly, it wouldn't have happened. I just want my baby, all I want is him, to join him in Heaven, with his Grandmum, that's all I want, but I can help more people here, try and do right by my little boy, that's all I want, for him to be proud of me, for saving many lives, except saving him...

(THIS WAS JUST A SHORT CHAPTER AS I AM SICK, ITS BASICALLY FILLING UNTIL I GET A BIT BETTER)