Beyond the Lights

In Your Arms.22

"My suggestion to you at this point is to let her rest. No, officers and no forcing her to re-jog her memory. She sustained psychological injuries that could possibly leave her with PTSD, depression or even mood disorders." The doctor told us. "We won't know anything until she physically gets back into her life routine."

Inez sat down physically unable to take the news.

I shook my head.. She won't be the same anymore? Is that what the doctor was trying to say? I couldn't swallow half the information he just told us.

The only good news here is that she's alive but the rest is just a guessing game.

"Well when can we go see her?" I asked.

"Right now, but just take it easy on her."

I nodded and thanked the doctor. I sat down beside Inez waiting to see when she'll be ready to see her. "He says we can go see her now." I told her again as she stared blankly at the ground.

"You go." She whispered.

I was confused. "What? No, we can go in together."

"She's probably so mad at me.. I told her to stay away from you. I put her on a short leash and this is what happens. I was so blind to see it but this whole time you've been protecting her." She looked up at me. "This has to do with that night someone broke into our house."

I swallowed hard until she waved a hand in front of me as if she was giving up. "I don't completely understand Chresanto but I know there's something missing."

I wasn't prepared to sit down with her mother and explain to her what happened and who did this. I was never suppose to speak of any of this ever again but who am I to keep lying to her mother after this?

"It's okay." She went on this time she grabbed both my hands gripping them as she spoke. "God forbid anything like this ever happens to my daughter again... But I'm trusting you, If you can't tell me and if she can't tell me for a good reason, you best protect her the same way you've been doing for me this far and for her. I want you to see her, alone she'll want to see you I know it." She told me.

I blinked a few times before I agreed, if it was alright with her then it was for me too I had to give it to her she is the strongest person I knew. My own parents wouldn't have taken a second to try to put the pieces together if it could save their own lives.

I nodded gesturing that I will fix this. Nothing will ever happen to Alana as long as I live from this day forward. I got up to finally go see her It felt as if I was just meeting her for the first time again except this time I was nervous.

I took a deep breath then knocked on the door before I entered. I went in and for the first time in these past couple of days every part of my body relaxed. She laid still in her bed still asleep confirming for me that I'm not hallucinating. I pulled up a chair next to her silently waiting for her to wake up. Her face didn't have a single scratch on it which also kept me calm, one of the nurses must've combed her curls out and tied it back because I never seen her hair this way. I've seen her many times but I know this is different. Her vulnerability was always there but with me she was tough and managed to force walls up when she needed to. I sensed a difference or I could just be thinking far too much.

With one last deep breath she turned facing me and her eyes opened up. She didn't say a word before she lifted up her hand up to my cheek and wiped a tear. I pulled back to wipe my face hadn't even realized I was crying.

"Im so sorry Alana." I whispered in the palms of my hands.

She grabbed my hand pulling me toward her as she moved to the side gesturing that I'd just lay with her. I didn't hesitate for a second I carefully wrapped my arms around her waist as she pushed her body against mine. I couldn't stop thinking that this is all she wanted while she was gone.