Beyond the Lights

Senior.01

High school my freshman year seemed like it couldn't go by any slower but now here I am four years later thinking I did absolutely nothing to make this experience one to tell my kids one day. A very long one day at that. I just assume that I'm the only one who expected High school to be a more reckless, memorable and social. Yes social.. Don't get me wrong I have friends it's just that they're under the category as school friends.

school friends = I have no social life with these people outside of school.

Except Liliana, we're attached at the hip just not at this exact moment.  She should be on her flight back home after visiting family in San Juan while I'm sulking in bed about all the fun I wish I could've had all these four years.  I have the grades for a break and counting down the last few hours until the first day of school wasn't making my head spin any slower.

As I'm scrolling through Tumblr on my phone I can hear the creaking of the stairs, meaning my mother was on her way up. I locked my phone, tucked it under my pillow and closed my eyes. She knocked on the door but I didn't reply I knew she'd open the door anyway.

"Alana." Her soft voice was always a melody I wouldn't ever get tired of.  I mumbled a few nothing's until she continued. "I'm not going to be here in the morning, they just called me in for a late shift."

I turned over to look at her I knew where this was going. "So that means you have to get up on time in the morning."

No matter how old I get my mom always dropped me off at school the whole first week even missing a day could throw me off. I groaned, the news only shortening the last hours of summer break. "Alright."

"Don't say alright and still end up missing the first day either."

"Okaaayy."

She tapped my thigh. "Goodnight."

but if only I could slee-...

*

He licked his lips and looked at me from head to toe, I refused to look him in the eyes when he got to mine. He grabbed my hand and pulled my body closer to his.. just when I thought the nerves kicked in.

"Chresanto, I gotta go home soon, my mom-"

If I had been electrocuted and lived to tell about it this, this moment and this insane feeling in my stomach would be my definition..

And the music the music that hadn't been playing before began. but it didn't exactly match the moment.. The moment I'd been waiting for turned into something else... I pushed him far enough away from me and all the electricity went away.

I snapped out of it and threw my phone across the room. The same music still playing from the dream echoed in my room now.

Stupid. Now I really have to get up to shut the alarm off.

I don't know if I was more mad the dream ended that way, or that I had to get up.

both...

This is it. 11 months and I'll be a graduate. No big deal. 6am's will be over and dreams will be longer.

Great.

As I got ready for the door my phone rang. I shuffled through my bag and picked it up.

"Ahhhh!"

"Lilly!"

"Alana!" she yells through the line.