What are we? I know we said we would talk, get to know each other better and decide if we wanted to be more than friends. You said you like me- but still needed to think about if a relationship is feasible despite the distance.
 Originally, I said that I was okay- that I would wait. Because at that point I was falling in love with you. And it is okay. I think relationships are serious and you shouldn't jump into one until you're ready and know what you want. I know it's a lot to think about, but it's been weeks since you first said that. At this point I'm pretty sure I am in love with you. I'm happy. You call me your gf despite neither of us asking the other and despite you not having made your decision. You get excited to tell me things going on in your life, like moving or coming out or getting another job. It is cute and it makes me feel special.
But what are we? If you can't decide it means you are letting your fears win over your feelings for me. I understand that feelings are fickle and that they change with the wind- switching around at the drop of a hat, but sometimes fears are also. I have fears too, but I love you more than I'm scared and I am willing to put work in to make a relationship a success and love you the best way I can. If you are not willing to do that then please stop calling me your gf. Stop letting me get close to you in this way and just be honest with me. I may not think much of myself, but I know I deserve that, at least.
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Sunshine
RandomAn open letter to my girlfriend. Sappy as hell. Some of it will be a bit like a stream of consciousness- it's here to help sort out thoughts and tell her things she isn't quite ready to hear yet. Since these are pieces I write quickly any time they...
