Sunshine

Dear Sunshine 10/2

One of the more challenging parts of being in an LDR presented itself today. It was shocking- especially since I've been so happy.

You sent me a silly selfie of you in a face mask, it was cute. A few minutes later you said everything was wrong- that you were crying and you couldn't stop. My heart ached to know you were hurting and all I could do was send you messages when I wanted to do more. I was in class but I told you I would call you. You said you couldn't talk. I sent whatever I could think of so you would know you weren't alone.

'I love you'

'so so much'

'I wish I could help you'

'Please let me know if you can talk'

'let me know if there' anything I can do'

You haven't responded yet. Trying to comfort someone you love is never easy- especially when I don't know what happened and the time difference means our schedules don't line up.

If we were together I know what I would have done. I would have hugged you immediately- tightly so you knew I had you. I would wipe your tears and get you a drink, and I would cuddle you. When you were ready to talk about it I'd be there to listen and, if you wanted it, give my opinion or advice. I would do more than I'm able to do now.

I realise stuff like this is part of an LDR. I knew beforehand that I wouldn't be able to comfort you the way you would need to be comforted. I knew it would hurt- just not how much or how soon.

When you're ready to talk I'll be here. While I'm waiting I'll spam you with I love you's and write you these notes you don't even know exist.

I love you so much. Whatever is happening know that you are not alone. I'm here. It will get better one way or another, my love.

Don't let this claim your light, Sunshine.