Clouded Soul

12

Dominic and Marcus came rushing into the room. I stared at the four-legged creature as it sat on the windowsill.

"Get it," I whined and grip onto Marcus's arm.

Dominic kissed his teeth and grabbed the frog.

"Really, Mercy?"

I nod my head and he throws it out the window and shuts it. As soon as he does, I let go of Marcus's arm and frown.

"You good now," he asked walking into the bathroom to wash his hands.

" Yeah. I can't stand frogs," I say shuddering.

Marcus laughs and Dominic just shakes his head. Marcus went back into the living room, but Dominic stayed.

"I'm going into the bathroom...are you just going to wait out here for me?"

"Unless you want me to come in," he said smirking.

"Stop being freaky," I tell him.

He kissed his teeth and walked over and slipped his arm around my waist. He pulled me in and kissed me while grabbing on my butt. I moved my hand to his chest as he began sucking on my neck.

"D-Dom..." I say unable to say his name all the way.

I can feel him smiling against my neck. His hands moves from my butt to my waist, inching in between my legs, but fear snaps me from my bliss.

"Dominic no," I say and he stops, giving me a quick peck on the lips.

"What happened to Dom," he joked, biting his lips.

"Shut up. I think you should go entertain your friends instead of bothering me." I fake like I have an attitude.

"Eh, you're right but I like you," he said with a smile.

Was he serious? I couldn't tell. His smile was misleading. Why would someone as tough as him like a scared brat like me?

I didn't get to ask him anything because a second later he'd went back to the group. My stomach felt like it was twisting itself into one big knot.

I looked through my stuff for my book of poems. I found it after what felt like an hour and began to write.

~ Damn. Just plain and simple damn. I'm just not sure about being around him. What if he isn't a good as he seems? What if theres some bullshit going on behind the scenes? He could just be using me. Meaning I'm like a droplet of rain falling from leaf to leaf until I end up on the forest floor only to be sucked up in the soil and evaporated and condensated just to repeat my decent. I'm there for his use... I'll find out I guess, I'm thinking too deep about it. All he said was that he liked me.

I put the book away and took a whole shower. I was tired and it was almost 11 o'clock. I needed a nap so instead of rejoining the group, I'll go to sleep.

I put on some underwear and my big Chicago Bulls jersey. I let my hair down too. After I finished in the bathroom, I jumped into the bed, laying my head on the pillow and shutting my eyes. I felt myself falling asleep quickly. Had I really been this tired all along? Just as I questioned myself, I was knocked out by sleep.

...

I woke up and see Dominic still asleep. After a second I realized what today was and smiled.

"Dominic..."

He groaned and peeked at me through one eye.

"Shit what's up, Ma?" His voice deep and full of sleep.

"Happy Birthday," I say smiling big.

He smiled and sat up revealing his half naked body. I didn't look this time. I'd learned a little abstinence.

"You gon make me breakfast," he asked smirking at me.

"Yeah, give me a minute," I say getting up and stretching. As I popped my back and groaned a little and bent over stretching down towards my toes.

"It's kind of early for you to be making me hard, Ma," he said causing me to turn around.

My eyes rolled down his chest to look and sure enough he was hard. I bit my lip ad stared back at him thinking of something to say. He was just watching me the whole silent minute.

"I...uh I-I didn't know. I'll j-just g-go...um," I said stuttering like a fool.

I quickly walked into the bathroom, brushing my teeth and washing my hands and face. After I got done with that, I dipped into the kitchen to start cooking.

...

"Damn this is good! You sure you ain't buy this shit, Mercy?"

I laughed and shook my head. I couldn't believe he thought it was good. My sister always told me my cooking tasted bad, so I didn't really cook much. I guess that was just a lie because of her petty jealousness.

"I might call off the party and just get high and have you cook some more food for me," he said stuffing his mouth.

"I'm not going to be your slave, Dominic. And I thought the party started at like 7 or something," I say furrowing my brows.

He shrugged.

"I guess I got to wait. So until then you gon be my wing-chick and help me score some pussy," he said.

I rolled my eyes and pouted. Who did I look like to him? I'm not going to help him get chicks.

"Who said I would do that," I asked rolling my eyes.

He sighed and looked me up and down before shooting me his answer.

"No one. I just need some birthday pussy and I'm not gon ask you for it. Unless you want to lose your virginity today," he said in all seriousness.

I stared at him unsure if I should feel thankful or pissed off. Instead of arguing about it, I just shrugged and said, "Whatever."