Sorry Dad. (Luke Hemmings Fan Fiction)

Chapter 30

Luke's POV

I wake up in the morning before Avery and honestly I'm not surprised. I know she was up all night. I felt her heart beat fast all night every few minutes. She was so terrified and I wish I can just take away her fear and deal with it for her instead.

I don't want to disturb her from her sleep so I just lay with her still clutching tight on to me. I just pray she will be feeling better when she wakes up.

Avery's POV

I wake up and struggle to open my eyes due to all the dried tears I have. It actually felt nice to cry because in that dream, it hurt so bad not to express my feelings. I'm still clutching on to Luke tightly but once I realize, I instantly pull away.

"Are you okay?" Luke looks at me like I'm a crazy person.

"Um, yeah." I lie. I'm not okay. After that dream, I honestly don't understand how to be around Luke. I keep thinking I'm disappointing my mother all because of that dream. I try to conivince myself it's just a dream but for some reason, my mind keeps reeling that being with Luke is not good. It just makes me so fucking angry how I can't control my mind. It just makes me a pissed off person overall.

"You're lying." Luke tries to scoot closer to me after I put a good amount of space between us.

"You don't fucking know anything Luke." I scoot further almost afraid to be near Luke.

"What's gotten into you?" Luke looks confused and almost hurt by my actions.

"I just can't be here right now." I sigh before hopping out of Luke's bed.

"What are you talking about Ave?" Luke hops out of bed after me totally caught off guard of my actions. I pull on a random pair of basketball shorts that I found lying around and head out of his bedroom door without saying one word to him.

"Avery, what the hell are you doing?" Luke grabs on tightly to my wrist and I swat it away. A quarter of me does it because of pain but the rest of me does it because I can't bare his touch right now. I can't bare his presence. I only have one thing on my mind and that's what I desperately need to get to.

"I just need to go." I try my best not to have contact with the deep blue sea I always get lost in.

"I'm not just going to let you leave that easily." Luke grips my arm once again but this time a lot more gentler.

"I just need to go Luke." I whine as I feel my eyes brim with tears. I don't even know why my eyes are watering up.

"Why?" Luke asks concern clear in voice with a strain of hurt behind it.

"Luke, I just need to fucking go and I really don't want to explain." I shout a little harshly and pull my hand away from Luke's grip once again while the first tear falls down my pale cheek.

"Just promise you will be back Avery." Luke begs. He walks up to my back and places his warm hand on my shoulder. "Please Avery come back."

"Okay, but not until later tonight." I just had to say yes. One because I had no where else to go and two because the vulnerability strained in Luke's voice killed me to hear. Like I said, I'm not going to give up on him so easily. Luke and I have barely spent a month together and I feel like we've been through our up and downs for about a year now. I just can't leave him so easily. I know damn well that would hurt me so much. I don't know how he will feel but I don't think I can live with myself, without Luke. I can't even believe I spent most of my life without him.

I walk out of the front door before Luke can try to persuade me to stay with him. I realize that my car isn't here and mentally scold myself for not even thinking about grabbing mine last night. I was just too broken to even think after my dad.. I can't even think about it without the same piercing pain stab throughout my body multiple times.