Poison To My Quickie

Facing Demons

Jasmine P.o.v.

Grogy but awake, im not dreaming, his brown eyes bore into my soul as if he can tell everything im thinking and saying.

Say something already. Nothings coming out. im lost for words once again. Say something. im begging for my lips to move and show him he doesnt have this affect on me no more. Please say something.

" Hey" i choke out

" Hey"

Were so close, and yet i feel a thousands miles away. So much has changed. He doesnt have his low haircut. He doesnt hold a unstressful face. He holds a face of regret, sadness, and frustration. i wanted to touch his face and feel every crinkle, every stress line.

My hand raises on its own. i try to stop it, but it feel his stubly cheek, to his soft lips. The lips i was in love with. i touch the top of his head. He had a fresh new haircut. Everything i touch sends electrified sparks  through me body. I missed touching him, him holding me and taking me into his arms.

Our faces are inches a part, my face comes closer to his as my hands acts as if he will break under my touch. Just one kiss, and ill get it over with. One kiss we will be over. Just one kiss.

" Nard" his eyes are focusing between my lip and eyes. Just one kiss. Our faces are centimeters away.

His hand grasp my thigh. I place my lips, moving in sync with his. Sparks ignite in my stomach. i need it too deepen but i cant. The longer it last the more my hearts aches. its balling up into a wad of paper.

My paper heart, every memory runs through my head. I loved him, and he didnt care. The next best option was open and he left.

Once you share your paper heart, its no longer yours. its ours.

Thats the thing, the old one was ripped up. This one was new.

i pulled back from the kiss.

" Nard, you hurt me. You took something i loved the most. The thing we created together you stole it. i forgive you for hurting me. I love you and i always will. if i could go back and change the past i wouldnt." i handed over the one thing i kept since our separation. “ i dont want this anymore, im done."

i kiss his cheek and wait for him to leave. I hope he will understand, that im not hurting anymore. That im the girl who was dependent on you is gone. Just one kiss solved everything.

When i heard the front door close i open the note from my mom.

Dear Jasmine,

I know you grew up too fast, and all you wanted was me to be a mom. Im sorry i couldnt give you what you wanted before i died. i am proud of you. Every A you brought home, every trophy, and certificate i have. Dont think i never loved you. Every mothers day gift you made i kept. I never wanted favortism to be expressed. i loved you and Jessie equally. i know why you sat alone and cut your self. i was not the parent i shouldve been. i couldve stopped you the day you moved in and thought i didnt see your waist. i was weak. i hope you grow and be a better mom than i was. Love only comes one time. if you find it keep it. Everybody wants to heal from scars, but those scars are who you are. i love you Miracle, Take care of your sister for me.

       Your Mother's Love

Jessie P.o.v.

I stood at Chase door, i needed to talk to him.

" Baby?"

" hey"

he ushers me in, i stare around his house deciding on what i was going to say.