Poison To My Quickie

Can i forgive you?

I have been home a week now. So far Jess has been at my beck and call. I feel guilty because it wasn't her fault but she doesn't listen. Rob hasn't contacted me since the accident. I guess he ment what he said.

Nard has been blowing up my phone, but I haven't had the courage to speak to him. I mean I have been through enough drama he was the last person on my list to fix my problems with but I guess you got to start somewhere.

In honesty I don't know what I'm going to say. Everytime I'm around him my heart goes left and goes crazy. Leaving me flabber gasted and jittery. I have to compose my life first.

But I know I can't stall, so as soon as I get the confidence to speak to him I will. I laid back in my bed relaxing. I'm on bed rest giving my leg time to heal and my body to recover before they give me cruches and I can get around.

I was dowsing off when a knock at the door scared me. Whoever it was better had hurry up before the medicine kicked in again.

" Come in"

" Honey a boy is here for you."

" Who?" my heart raced at the thought of Nard.

" He says his name is elijah."

My heart calmed down, but I guess I could solve my problems with Elijah now.

" Okay mom send him up."

I waited knowing I would say what I had to say before he spoke.

" Damn Jas even when your injured your still incredibly beautiful." he commented

" Look elijah we have to talk."

" I know" he looked down

" Elijah, your were a cool friend. I trusted you. You broke down my barriers to keep myself from being hurt with out me noticing and for that I hate you. You played me twice when I finally came to the conclusion I wanted you."

" You wanted me?"

" I'm not done. Your with Erica and I respect that I just don't appreciate the fact that you played me for Nards little game. I don't blame you because you don't know our story. I have come to the conclusion I can't talk to you anymore. Once my trust has been broken its hard to put them back up again."

" Jasmine, don't do this."

" Elijah you did this, you dont understand how it feels for a girl to be hopelessly in love with you and you want to play games. I'm too old for games, for lies, for jokes I have been through enough. I'm not going through it again for you. So good bye Elijah." my eyes were on the brink of tears, but not from sadness but from the sense of release on my heart.

He stood in my bedroom watching me a tear slid down his cheek.

" Elijah please leave-"

" You know what jasmine I'm not leaving until I have gotten this off my chest. I don't know you and Nards full story but I know enough. I'm not him, I'm not going to break your heart. Erica and I are not together, we never was. I didn't play you, luck just wasn't on my side when we were together. I didn't know you and Nard were even together until the way you acted at the river walk. Okay! so don't hate me for something that's not my fault. I love you Jasmine, you made me change my ways. When were not together your all I think about. Its you, my heart is racing, my hands want to feel yours against mine. So don't do this I beg you."

with that he walked over and smashed his lips against mine.

a short but very passionate kiss. I stared as he pulled back and whispered one thing before walking out. He loved me?

My phone rung once again pulling me out of my thought.

I looked and saw it was an unknown number.

Hello?

Jasmine?

Yes who's this?

This is Rob how are you?

Good, I guess, where are you?

I'm actually in town want to hang out?

I'm on bed rest, how bout you come over we can talk and hang out

Okay How bout I get five guys and come over

Its a deal

I hung up, and laid back to relaxation. The medicine was kicking in and I went off into sleep.

Elijah P.O.V.

I actually told her I loved her. Do I really?

I  love how when she smiles her eyes go from brown to green. Or when the freckles on her right cheek make the sun jealous. She was beautiful in her room. Her hair was a messy bun that needed to be redid but on her it looked perfect.

In a tank top cover in stains and shorts. the scratches in bruises evident on her body couldn't hide how beautiful she was.

I love her. I don't deserve her but I want her, I need her.

I can't even get her back. I fucked up. I ruined the only girl I loved. I played games. I lied.

Chase was right if I gave her a chance I would love her. Now he wont even talk to me, I have hurt his girlfriends sister and his cousin that they were so close the could be brother and sister. I have no chance and getting her back.

I want to beg to god for her back but I don't deserve her. I'm in love with a girl who want probably ever love me back.