These last few months have been complete hell and torture. I had my heart broken in pieces and the pain is agonizing and killing me. I cry so much I can barely breathe. He destroyed me..mentally and physically. I'm skinnier than I was before and the flashbacks make me want to kill myself. Seeing him at school everyday and with my friend.. I want to cry so hard but I don't cry in front of people. He tore me down everyday multiple times telling me he was going to kill him self. You don't know how many times I cried I day..twice.three times..four times. It was one of them. He made me do something I hate myself so much for..I don't want to say it bc I want to kill myself for it and every other mistake I made with him. I've been mentally abused by him. He told me he loved me more than anything and I was his life, his everything but I never meant anything to him at all...I was just being used the whole time..for nudes and sex but he only got one of those and I hate myself so much for that. The world would be better off without me in it. I would be happier anyway...
