Do I look like the person I was before? Do I act like person I was before? The answer is No. I've been fucked up for months and only gets worse. The flash backs are hell. The mental breakdowns are shattering me. You don't even know how many times I've just wanted kill myself. How many times I've thought about drinking or eating something that make die faster. Or even bleed to death. All I do is cause drama, waste peoples time and money. I get in the way of everyone. I'm not ok even if I act like I am, trust me I'm not. I'm crying from inside. Hiding my pain bc that's only I'm truly good at doing. I'm messed up. I've messed up. I deserve nothing at all. I'm shattered...I can't be fixed
