I losing my friends what's going on. I had a panic attack today out of nowhere. My boyfriend thinks me having panic attacks are funny. I feel so unloved and feel like fall apart at any moment. I've lost so much it's too hard to think. If I overthink I hurt myself because it always ends up badly. I'm so hurt, damaged. I've been hurt by people for years and it's given me so much time to figure out how to hurt people. That's how I'm losing people I'm hurting them. And it's hurting myself. I'm so sorry if I hurt you. I thought well if you hurt me I need you to feel the pain l feel. I'm done I'm just done. I know I will alone forever. I'm so tired of keeping things locked up inside me but it be to hard to let it out. I'd be crying for weeks. Wondering why I'm not good enough for just one guy to care everything I am. All the sadness I feel. I'm done I'll be back tomorrow.
