When Demons Are Redeemed: The Dominant's Muse

Fifty-One - Overruled: Punishing the Innocent and Defending Bad

FIFTY-ONE

Overruled: Punishing the Innocent and Defending Bad

Catherine takes a few more steps down the first aisle of the coatroom and stops before a woman whose head is resting to one side, towards her shoulder.

“Why do most men insist on being so unreasonable? Why must it be all about them?” The woman is heard. “Why can’t a man plan to marry once in his life to procreate, and plan to have that relationship last the longest in his life, without his lying and cheating or abuse making it blow up, and, therefore, with a nicer break-up ending it, one where both he and mom can figure out how to best parent as a team, but apart, taking into consideration their kids’ temperament, and activities, and all of it, without a battle, and with pain minimized for all? Is that really too human-demanding for most men? Kids are certainly worth the longer relationship with, and investment in, a wife and family. He could have whatever other kind of relationship he wanted after that one.

But most men don’t do that, and most men say things like ‘well, so what if he cheated on his wife, lied to her and to his kids, and didn’t care what diseases he gave them? That’s just between the two adults, and it doesn’t’ mean that he’s a bad man or that he’s of bad character.’ Oh my. I so know that the wicked pleasure alone that a man seeks and then thoroughly enjoys when treating his wife like crap shows just what crap he is, at his very core and foundation: he isn’t a man who does what’s right.

And not calling bad character what it is has not been kind to kids and teens and young adults, who now require more professional mental care. Not that it did me any good. Well, so, kids aren’t so resilient, are they? They’re affected by this male world. But men invent many catch phrases like the ‘resilient’ one in order to allow them to do whatever they want. And that’s called grooming. If only I could teach all girls that word and how to see it in action, all around them. 

And it’s about all of society’s unease, so, even if some kids who are unwell have both parents, and decent parents, it’s that the emptiness is in other kids, and in other situations around them.

And what happened to ‘because the years before five, last the rest of their lives?’ Guess that was a failed female-initiated grooming attempt. We just have too many traitors in our collective.

Studies show that even three month old babies know right from wrong: a puppet show at a prestigious university proved that knowing is innate. So then, babies know when a parent is doing something wrong, and it starts very early on, the knowing. I’m sure that I knew earlier on, in that way, but what I remember is it starting when my father told me that his cheating on my mother had nothing to do with me. The judge, a doctor, and his stupid mother and his sister said that too.

Really? I couldn’t sleep in my room every night, and see my friends when I wanted to, and make my own plans, and there was all this tension, and a judge forced me to be somewhere, even though I wasn’t a criminal to be punished and controlled by the law, even though my dad was the one who did the bad thing, not me. But what sentence did he get? None. I got it for him.

He went to court and then all the men said that he was perfectly allowed to put his dick before my best interests, and so, they gave him joint custody. My whole life was turned upside down, but my dad’s cheating had nothing to do with me, with how much he loved me?! Uh, no, it wasn’t all between him and my mother, because it was also between his dick’s happiness and his daughter’s, and I didn’t win. I wasn’t the most important to him. And no, fighting viciously to get custody of me after what he did wasn’t showing me that I mattered oh-so-much to him.

Well, I wasn’t stupid like a lot of kids are: I knew that he did the bad thing, and that he was the one who should’ve been punished for it, not me. Only seriously brainwashed kids can get over their dad’s dick -- or anything else -- having been more important than them. And even then, they only get over it on the surface, because the repercussions of what their dad did shapes them, and then haunts them, because, whether boy or girl, they can never truly love, having been shown that a man getting laid matters more than love, than a good character of not lying, and of doing the right thing.