BitterSweet and Strange [GxG]

🍸 Ex's Request 🍸

🍸 BitterSweet and Strange 🍸

ALAS quatro na ng madaling araw. Hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako makatulog. How could I? I just made the I'm-uncertain-about-what-to-feel experience in my life. Oh my God! This wasn't me!

Kanina pa ako nakatambay dito sa pool area. Gusto ko lang magpahangin at mahimasmasan, pero lalo lang nagiging malabo ang pag-iisip ko. Everytime I closed my eyes, all I could see was the thing that happened between Mae and I. The taste of her cherry lips still lingered on mine. Paano nangyari ang nangyari? Paano ko nagawa ang bagay na 'yon?

Something in me has been awakened by that girl. Nakakahiya mang aminin pero, first time kong naka-experience ng ganong bagay. The fvck! Did I seem like a faggot? Argh! Hindi naman kasi iyon ang nasa isip ko these past years. I've been busy with my restaurant, so I didn't get any chance to get involved intimately!

I didn't even know how would I move the moment we were there. Alam ko nagtaka siya, but she chose to ignore it. Nakakahiya talaga! However, I felt pleased when she screamed my name as if she flew above the ecstasy. Then she went limp, afterward— with a little smile on her face telling me that she was satisfied.

Napalunok ako. Fvck! Ano ba 'tong iniisip ko? You know, I wasn't a smoker but I guess I needed one. Actually, I have finished several sticks. Nang tingnan ko ang kaha na hawak ko, apat na lang ang naroroon. Bigay sa'kin 'yon ni Dindin nang magpunta ako sa reception kanina para maghanap ng sigarilyo. Ang dami ko ng utang sa kanya. But I was like paranoid when I saw her grin. Did she know what we've done?

Magliliwanag na nang makaramdam ako ng antok. I finally decided to go back to our room. Mae was still sleeping peacefully. Napalunok na naman ako nang makita ko ang exposed na likuran niya dahil nakatagilid ito ng higa. I slowly went near her to pull the cover up, when she suddenly moved and turned to me. I was halted. Nakaramdam ako ng pagkataranta.

"Ang aga mo namang nagising." Her voice was still husky due to being just awakened.

Napangiti ako nang mapangiti siya sa'kin. Her eyes were partly opened, her hair was a mess but she remained stunning. I shove the thought away as I cleared my throat. "A-actually, matutulog pa lang ako."

Bigla naman siyang napabalikwas ng bangon. It must have slipped her mind that she didn't have anything underneath. The duvet fell down when she moved unmindfully, exposing half of her body. I immediately turned my gaze away but I already saw her firm breasts. May naalala na naman ako.

"Oh my gosh!" Bulalas niya at natatarantang nagtakip ng sarili.

Neither of us has spoken for a moment. I didn't know what to say.

"M-may nangyari... s-sa... atin?" She asked.

Dahan-dahan kong ibinalik ang paningin sa kanya. Curiosity was etched on her face. She's awaiting my answer. Nagbaba ako ng tingin at marahang tumango. I heard her gasp. Seriously? She didn't know that she was the one who initiated it. If she didn't steal a kiss from me this wouldn't have happened.

"I'm sorry."

Automatikong napa-arko ang isa kong kilay sa narinig. "Why?"

Instead of getting an answer, I heard her sobbing. Natataranta na nga ako, lalo pang nadagdagan. Napahawak ako sa magkabila niyang braso. Oh, she's crying! Does she think that I raped her? No, no, no, no!

"H-hey. M-Mae! You're freaking me out." Pag-amin ko.

"K-kasalan... kasalanan ko naman di ba? Kasalanan ko kung bakit may... may nangyari?" Aniya habang umiiyak.