Last Farewell -Suicide

Just Die

-Ema Lyna William

Every day is the same, everyone hate me and call me bitch.

Spreading rumour saying that I'm a slut.

Each day I will cut my wrist until I relaxed. Crying alone in my room. Staring at the ceiling and laughing.

"Why do I deserve this?" I laugh and my tears flowing down.

I wipe my tears and try to cry myself to sleep. Then I heard the phone ring, sign of the incoming messages.

I walk to my desk and reach for my phone.

I stood there silence. Until I burst out crying again. "I am broken enough today" and I smile.

I know this is my end. I gave up.

"Still alive?, awww I think you better off death"

"Just die, bitch no one love you"

"You're ugly that's why your dad leave you"

"Stupid, don't say I'm your friend!!"

"Just die and do everyone favour"

People spamming my inbox. I cry and cry and cry.

Just die..

Better off deathh....

Ugly...

Die....

Bitch....

Just DIE!!....

That is the only thing that I hear in my mind. I scream and then smile, saying;

"Just Die"

The tears keep flowing down.

Instead of using paper and pen. I reach out for my camera and phone.

I walk to the bathroom.

I lock the door.

I set up my camera and phone.

In my hand I'm holding the knife. I push the start button and set the cam live to facebook.

The camera is infront of me and I saw my face on the phone. 97 viewers. People commenting saying..

"Bitch are you filming your make out sesion"

"Sure loser, slut"

After the moment of silence, I cry and laugh.

"Miss me?" I smile and cut my wrist.

"I should be dead, right?"

Cut again.

"You wanted me dead?"

I stab my left hand. I let out my cry and scream.

I cut my hand for every word that they call me.

Bitch

Cut

Slut

Cut

Loser

Cut

Stupid

Cut

Nerd

Cut

Ugly

Cut

Useless

Cut

"Die, die, die, die, die, die" I repeat the word over and over again. I smile.

"JUST DIE!!" I scream out loud and cut my hand again and again and again with the knife.

246 Viewers

I smile and then I heard the bathroom door knocked.

*Bam, bam, bam*

I ignore it.

"Ema!! OPEN this freaking Door!!" I heard my brother scream.

*Bam, bam, bam*

The door knocked again loud.

"EMA!"

I smile and cry infront of the camera. Continuing cutting my hand. I'm in the pool of blood. I smile and then scream.

"Are you happy now?" I laugh with my tears flowing down.

The last move

I hold the knife at my neck and slit my neck from the left to the right.

I smile.

I'm free now.

I dropped the knife and I fall sitting and leaning on the wall.

Before the blackness eating me, I saw the bathroom door opened and there stand a figure of my brother, holding his phone.

He is watching my vid all along.

I see his face pale and blank, full of sadness. He hug me and hold me on his lap. Ingoring my pool of blood.

I hear his cry and screaming my name.

I whisper "Goodbye" to him.

I stare at his face until the blackness come.

This is my end. Bye..