Alone ( Jacksepticeye x Depressed reader ) {COMPLETED}

Chapter Three

Previously on "Alone (Jacksepticeye x Depressed reader)"

I go back to watching the movie and in another 15 minutes my eyes slowly closed and I fell asleep.

(Y/N)'S POV

I woke up still in Jack's arms. I smiled and got up, trying not to wake him. I went into the kitchen to start making breakfast. I decided to make pancakes, bacon, and eggs to say thanks to Jack. I was almost done cooking when Jack came in still half asleep with his messy green hair. I look at the clock seeing that it was almost 11:00. "Good morning sleepy head, nice bed head." I say to Jack looking at him with a smile. He smiled an adorable sleepy smile. While staring at him I was thinking "Why is he so adorable? Why is he so nice to me I don't deserve it?" Then I snap back into reality because he snapped his fingers in front of my face while saying "Hey, you good? You kept staring at me." " Oh yeah, I'm fine. I just zoned out." He nods and sits at the table. I go back to cooking and can feel my face is hot, which means that I'm blushing. Soon I am done cooking and Jack gets his food and goes to sit at the table. He looks up and sees me sitting down with no food. "Why aren't you eating?" He looks at me with furrowed eyebrows. "I'm not hungry." He looks up at me with a face that says ' I know your lying, now tell me'. For once I actually just wasn't hungry. "God Dammit (Y/N)! If you don't fucking eat I will shove this fucking delicious pancake down your throat." I look at him shocked. " I'm honestly just not hungry, I never really ate breakfast because it can make me sick. Also, thanks for the cooking compliment and I'm guessing you aren't a morning person." He looks up from stuffing his mouth and says, "Yeah I'm not a morning person, never have and never will be. Your welcome for the compliment and I'll let you not eat this time but you have to eat later Okay?" He looks me in my eyes waiting for my answer. "Okay good to know you aren't a morning person, and yes I will be eating later. I have to make up for all those times I didn't eat, don't I?" I look at him jokingly. He laughs almost choking on his food. "Maybe if you didn't stuff the whole plate into your mouth you wouldn't choke." I say joking with him. He chuckles and since he was finished with his food he put his plate in the sink and sat back down. "Wait don't we have school today!" He says quickly remembering it was Tuesday. "Oh shit, yeah we do. We need to quickly get ready and get to school." I say running to my room to get dressed. "Wait, what do I wear? I don't have any clothes and I don't want to wear what I wore yesterday." He asks me. "Okay, so you can wear the same pants just umm... let me grab one of oversized band t-shirts. It will probably fit you." I say as I'm rummaging through my closet. "There it is! Found it!" Jack comes in he already had taken his shirt off and had his pants from yesterday on. I looked at his chest for a second before handing him a "Panic at the Disco" t-shirt. "Hurry go get changed." I yell to him. I quickly put on my baggiest sweatshirt and a pair of black leggings. I run to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror. I just needed to redo my hair. I quickly redo my messy bun and walk out into the living room to see Jack there already ready. "You ready to go?" He asks me grabbing the doorknob. "Yeah, lets go before we miss any more school." We then walk to the car, get in and head to school.

~TIMESKIP TO SCHOOL~

We got to the school and walked into the office. The lady at the desk looks at us with an almost angry look. "Why are you guys late?" She says glaring at us. "W-w-well..." Jack grabs my hand to calm me, knowing if I don't calm down I will have a panic attack. He looks at me then to the office lady, who is glaring at us even more. "What she's trying to say is that we woke up late." He grabs my hand a little tighter. "How do I know you're not lying, because you seem like you are. She can't even get the words out so-" She couldn't even finish her sentence because Jack interjects saying "She couldn't get the words out because she is anxious and if she doesn't calm down she will have a panic attack and pass out, and you pointing that out isn't helping. So can you please give us passes so we can be on our way?" He said all of this very seriously. He could tell my anxiety was getting worse because my breaths were getting shorter and my hand was shaking. The office lady gives us our passes and lets us go. We walk upstairs hand in hand. Once we got upstairs we had to go our separate ways until lunch, which isn't that long but will feel like forever. He lets go of my hand and starts to walk away only before saying, "Bye babe! See you later!" I was walking away but then I stop in my tracks. "Did he just call me babe? Even if he did he probably just meant it in a friendly way. He probably has a girlfriend anyway." I thought to my self while walking into the class, handing the teacher, then sitting down. My friend Lily hands me a note which says 'Why were you late? We saw you with Jack in the hallway. Are you dating? Also, you have glasses?!' After reading the last sentence I remembered I wore my glasses today and since I always wore contacts no one had seen me with glasses before. I write her back saying this. ' One, I was late because Jack and I woke up late. Two, No. And three, I've had glasses since kindergarten but I've worn glasses since 4th grade so no one has seen me with my glasses. Four, why do you ask so many questions?' I had it back to her. I know I put no to that Jack and I are dating. I put no because I don't think we are, no matter how much I want us to. I couldn't constraint on class because I had so many things going through my head. I was thinking about Jack mostly. About how adorable he was, how kind he was, how much he cared about me. I was thinking about what my feelings were for Jack. Was it love? Was it just a desperate crush because I just wanted someone who cared about me? Even if I like or even love him who says he loves me? He probably doesn't. He probably doesn't even care about me. He is probably only friends with me out of pity.My thoughts kept going deeper and deeper till I wasn't happy anymore. I decided to never talk to Jack again to keep myself from getting hurt. I need to keep on track with my plan, the plan to kill myself. Class was about to end and it was the last period before lunch. So I could avoid Jack I asked to go to the bathroom 10 minutes before class ended. I took all my stuff and left, but instead of going to the bathroom I left, I left the school and got in my car. Once I got in my car I started sobbing. I look back at the school, that at that moment I decided I was never going back to. There was no point anyway. As I looked at the school I was now leaving I saw Jack through a window, I think he noticed me. I see us meet eyes, I see him raise his hand and see him stand up. Then he turns and looks at me again through the window and held up one finger signaling that he'll be here in one minute. Once I realized what he was doing I quickly started my car and drove away. I look into my rearview mirror to see Jack run out of the school and yell something. I continued driving all the way to my house.

(A/N: This chapter is going to be really long because I would feel bad leaving it on a cliffhanger. I don't want to leave myself on a cliffhanger.)

Once I got to my apartment and went inside and locked the door. My mind was racing, maybe I shouldn't stay on track with the plan. Why don't I do it now, it's not like its going to get better in the next three days. I walked into my room, reached into my drawer and took out my knife. It still had dried blood on it. I walked into the bathroom and took out a bottle of pain pills so I could make sure it would work. I set everything on the bathroom counter and walked back into my room. I started my suicide letter and said goodbye to everyone I loved. I wrote about all my friends, my family, and especially Jack. I wrote about how I have been in pain for some time and no one cared enough about me to listen. The only one who had even the slightest idea about what I was going through was Jack. I thanked Jack for even caring the slightest about me. I finished my letter and looked at the clock it had been an hour since I had gotten home. I was about to go into the bathroom and I got a knock at the door. "(Y/N)! Please open the door, I saw you crying and I needed to come and make sure your okay. I need to make sure you aren't hurting yourself, please." He sobbed outside my door. "Go away! I deserve to die, I'm a waste of space." I said crying myself. "(Y/N)! Don't you dare kill yourself, I will break down this door if I have to." I finally gave in wanting to be in his warm arms again. I slowly walked to the door and unlocking it. Jack came running in, picking me up and looking me up and down making sure I was okay. "I'm fine, I didn't do anything, yet..." Jack hugged me as tight as he could without crushing me. "Please don't scare me like that again, I love you too much to lose you." He said in between sobs. I looked up at him with puffy eyes. "Y-you... love me?" Jack looks at me with those gorgeous blue eyes, places his forehead on mine and says. "Yes, of course I love you. I've never loved anyone more. I'm never leaving you. I'll love you forever and always." And with that, he kissed me.

(A/N: OMG they finally kissed, I loved writing this chapter so much. I might make the next chapter the same as this one but in Jack's point of view. UGHH I can't wait to write more.)