Fear [Niall Horan]

Comfort

Short chapter guys sorry but come on who ships Nexi, i think they're adorable <3 Let's get this story more reads :) 

After the visit from the police earlier today I locked myself away in my room and don't plan on leaving. I haven't even seen my mum today, I can't see her. I can't face her. I don't want to see anyone, I just want to curl into a ball and disappear. Mum's tried to get me out my room but I refused and it's only a matter of time before she tries again.

I lay my head on my pillow with one arm under it and the other clutching my duvet close to my face, I feel safe like this. I know a duvet won't protect me but the feeling of being surrounded by warmth and thick material just makes me feel protected. Tears run down my cheeks as I sniffle and sob, why her? Why did it have to happen to such an amazing person, friend and daughter?

"Lexi baby you need to come eat something," my mum called through my locked door.

"I'm not hungry."

"Lexi please, you can't shut yourself away forever. You need to come eat something."

"I don't want to, leave me alone," I shout this time so she gets the point.

I know what happened isn't her fault but she needs to get the hint and leave me alone. I will come out my room and eat in my own time but at this moment in time I need to grieve. I need to be left to cry and sob if I don't I'll crack and lose it, I just know I will.

Another hour passes by and in that time mum's tried to get me to come out my room twice more. With my blanket wrapped around my shoulders I wonder around my room aimlessly hiccupping from crying too much. My tears have all dried up now, I've been non-stop crying all day so there's nothing left to cry but that doesn't stop me from sobbing.

Tapping on my window frightens me and jump under my duvet, another tapping noise sounds and curiosity gets the better of me. I peek out from the duvet to see dark blue eyes looking through the window, the blue eyes are familiar. They're the ones that saved me, Niall.

I climb out of bed keeping my duvet wrapped around my body and make my way toward the window, I open it stepping back so he can climb in.

"Niall what are you doing here?"

"I was worried about you when you didn't text me, thought I'd check up on you," he explains himself with a slight smile.

So kind. He's been so kind to me. First he saves me and now he's here checking up on me because he's worried when he doesn't even know who I am. I let go of my duvet and throw my arms around his neck in a tight hug. He immediately hugs me back just as tight and I stand on my tiptoes to keep myself at his level.

"Hey, hey it's ok. I'm here."

"I don't know what's happening to me Niall, my whole body hurts inside. I can't stop crying, I keep reliving that night," tears somehow make an appearance; I thought my eyes were dried out, obviously not.

"It's called grief Lexi, you're going to feel like this but I'm here ok. Whenever you need me," he offers and I nod.

Niall leads me to the bed and sits us both down. He keeps an arm tight around my shoulder as I lean my head on his. The comfort I feel when he's around me, it's strange. I didn't know him 48 hours ago and yet being around him calm and comforts me more than being around my own mum. I'm thankful for his caring and for his being here and I can't thank him enough for saving me.

"When will I stop feeling like this Niall?" I ask as my head lies on his shoulder.

"I don't know Lex; I guess when you accept what's happened and move on with your life. I'm not saying forget about your friend, I'm just saying there's nothing you can do now so try not to dwell on it for too long," he explains and to be honest it makes sense.

"I know, I just miss her. She was my best friend, we done everything together." I sob pulling Niall closer by the scruff of his shirt; he wraps his arms around me once more pulling me in tight.

I don't want to move. I want to feel this safe forever. Niall's arms around me and his heart beating against my ear. The steady rhythm of his heart beat soothing me, calming me.

"Will you stay with me tonight?" I ask shyly not wanting to make him feel like he has to.

"Sure," He replies standing up and climbing into my bed.

Niall gets under the duvet and opens the other side for me to get in. I climb into my bed and snuggle into his open arms resting my head lightly on his chest. Niall pulls me close holding me carefully as though I will brake if he squeezes too hard. The steady beat of his heart soothes me, lulling me off to sleep.