Fear [Niall Horan]

Warnings

In a split second Niall's mood changes. He pushes me away and backs off wiping his mouth like I'm dirty or diseased.

"You shouldn't have done that!"

"But I wanted to. To say thank you, for saving me. Again," I reply confused

I don't get it, he kissed me back. Why would he push me away if he was kissing me back? Am I a bad kisser? I thought he liked me; he wouldn't just hang around sneaking into my room at night if he didn't care at least a little.

"Well don't do it again. It's not good to get close to me Lexi, bad things happen to the people I get close to." Niall turns and walks away up the street ahead. Confused I follow behind him walking faster trying to catch up to his pace.

"Then why'd you stick around huh? Why'd you come comfort me at night if you didn't want me to get close to you? I don't get it Niall one minute you're giving off signals that you want me around that you want to be there and protect me and the next your pushing me away telling me not to get close."

"Just drop it Lexi, drop it and go home."

"I'm not going anywhere until you give me answers," I object his orders and continue following him until we reach the dark and dingy street he lives on.

Niall keeps at his pace walking into his apartment building and straight to his place. I follow him inside and shut the door behind me with a bang. Niall makes his way into the kitchen and picks up a bottle of whiskey taking a large gulp of it before carrying it into the living room to face me.

"Why are you here? I told you to go home."

"I want answers; I want to know what you expect me to do. What are you so afraid of Niall? You kissed me back in that alleyway then push me away. Tell me what you're afraid of!" I demand shouting the last part.

Niall's expression switches. He goes from annoyed to angry in a split second as he throws the bottle across the room and glides forward straight in my face. My breath catches in my throat; I can smell the whiskey on his breath he's standing that close to me.

"I'm afraid of nothing!" He hisses in my face

"Then tell me why?" I say back with just as much force as before.

"No!"

"Tell me!"

"No."

"TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE AFRAID OF!"

A swift motion catches me off guard and sends me off balance as Niall's hand connects with my face. He hit me! I clutch my cheek in my hand as the stinging sensation intensifies and my cheek reddens. Immediately I can see the regret on Niall's face as he comes running toward me with tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry Lexi, oh god I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to do that, are you ok? Here let me see," he whispers pulling my hand away from my face so he can see the damage.

Niall lifts my face up and to the side with his finger under my chin so he can see my cheek in the light. The weird thing is I'm not scared, yes he hit me but I provoked him. It was my fault. I turn my head so he has a clear view of what damage he inflicted. Niall runs his thumb down the side of my face as I lean my head into his hand looking him directly in the eye.

"I'm so sorry Lexi, forgive me?"

"I forgive you Niall."

His grip on my face tightens as I'm pulled into his body. His lips connecting to mine fiercely as our lips move together quick and lust filled as my hands roam his body gripping at his clothes. Niall moves his hands from my face grabbing my ass lifting me swiftly off the floor. I wrap my legs around his hips as I'm slammed down onto the kitchen side. My hands roam through his dirty blonde hair as his find their way into my shirt and up my rips. I can feel how hard he is through the thin material of our clothing and I've never wanted someone more than right now...