exception | kim kangmin

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RyuJin's POV

" Why can't you get this part right ?! " Kangmin screamed while I glared at him. I mean i'm at fault for not being able to get the song right but why does he have to scream ?

" Regretted choosing you as a partner. " He said before storming out of the room , slamming the door behind him.

I picked up the lyrics and started practicing again.

I'm determined to show my true abilities this time , just because I don't look as good doesn't mean that I'm not talented.

The song that we decided to sing is called Breath which is a song sung by Shinee's Jonghyun and Girls' Generation's Taeyeon.

After an hour of practicing , I sat back down and drank water. I don't know why but just as I was resting for less than a minute , Kangmin entered the room and glared at me.

" I thought you would be practicing but I guess I was wrong and thought too highly of you. " He sneered and grabbed his bag pack.

" Just because you didn't see me practice doesn't mean that I didn't practice. If you really regret choosing me as your partner then tell the teacher. I don't need you to be my partner. " I said.

He faced me with a furious face.

" I am planning to. Truthfully I chose you to ensure that you don't get kick out of this school. Guess my good intentions doesn't get seen. " He said as if his being so kind.

" You don't have to be such a kind guy because I don't deserve it so just get out of my life. " I said before grabbing all my stuff and walking out of the room.

I don't need Kangmin to help me stay in this school. It's an art school for a reason , if i can't stay , it means I can't stay.

I got back home and I lied on the bed. I'm so emotionally tired with life , no matter how happy I might seemed which is obviously not the case.

I did my daily routine which is basically walking to the weighing scale to check my weight because i'm weight conscious.

67kg.

I pretty much have issues with my body image because I'm not as skinny as other girls out there on the street.

People told me that I need to lose weight because i'm not pretty enough or they would tell me that I would be prettier if i'm skinnier.

It made me want to lose weight but then again , I can't leave food which leads to me vomiting out the food after i'm done.

My parents aren't in Korea and my older sister has her own apartment nearer to her office so i'm practically alone at home.

Teenagers envies me for having freedom at home but I envy them for having parents with them at home.

I walked to the kitchen and took out a bowl and add some rice and egg into it before bringing it to the couch and eat it.

I walked to the bathroom and started poking the inside of my mouth so that I would vomit everything out.

I want to be skinny.

That's all that was in my mind.

After i'm done puking , I went to check my weight and to my displeasure , it increased by 0.2kg which makes me furious.

It might just seemed like a mere 0.2kg but to me it's like a huge stone being thrown onto my body.

I started searching up on ways on how to lose weight and I found a method that would allow me to lose the most weight.

I smiled to myself before deciding to carry it out tomorrow.

I tucked myself into bed and fell into a deep sleep.

The next morning , I woke up and I skipped my breakfast. I walked to school with an empty stomach.

I saw students eating in the cafeteria but I controlled myself. I have to reach 60kg by the end of this week otherwise i'm a failure.

I walked to my classroom to see Kangmin flirting with all those girls who wants to call him oppa.

I chose to ignore them since all I want is food but all I can do is look at them and not eat them.

" RyuJin , can you do the project alone ? " My teacher asked and I nodded. She nodded before walking away.

Well that was quick.

I laid my head on the desk as my stomach grumbled. Imagine shoving spoonfuls of rice into my mouth along with some pieces of hot spicy chicken.

Gulp.

I suddenly shot up which made everyone stare at me. if it hits me that I have to lose 8 kg by this week so I laid my head back down again.

" Are you that desperate to have me as a partner ? " Kangmin asked from behind after he threw a paper ball at me.

" If you're food then yes. " I said with no energy.

" Look at her , she's already so fat and yet all she cares about is food and food and food. The food that she consume in a day can last me for a month. " One of the girl said as she laughed with her friend beside Kangmin.

" Right ! She's like a wild boar ! Let's guess her weight , I think she's like 98kg. " They burst into laughter and that's when my angry self decides to come out to say hello.

I slammed my hand against the desk as I stood up and turned to face them with a fake smile.

" You guys are trying to test my patient aren't you ? " I asked with a fake smile and they looked really shocked at the fact that a fat lady like me is able to stand up for her own wellbeing.

" So what if i'm fat ? you guys might be skinny but if there's a zombie apocalypse , the zombie would be able to eat you guys up quick while I run. " I said as I leaned on my desk.

" Seriously though , why are you guys hating on me when I don't even talk to you gu- oh wait I mean I don't even want to talk to you guys. " They were trying to exit the room without me knowing.

I ran to the back door and slammed it shut.

" Answer me. " The one who started it started bawling and crying really hard.

" Why are you crying when you guys are the one that started this ? " I asked as I fold my arms.

" Ya ! This is getting too far ! " Kangmin screamed as me and I suddenly said out something that I never thought would ever expose to the world.

" Do you know that I cry myself to sleep everyday? "

25th Oct 2017

Congrats to Rain and Taehee for successfully giving birth to a baby girl !!