Midvale High

Chapter 17

Kara and Lena were still on the floor. Lena's sobs had died down, by Kara still had her arms wrapped around Lena's shaking body.

Lena was clutching onto Kara's arm as her tears dampened Kara's shirt. She buried her head in Kara's chest, finding some comfort knowing that Kara was still here with her.

She didn't deserve someone like Kara, she knew this, and this moment confirmed that.

She had yelled... she had screamed at Kara, to leave, to get out of her house... but Kara saw right through that. She saw the broken part of her that begged her to stay, that wanted her to hold her in her arms and to comfort her.

And that's exactly what Kara did, she stayed despite everything... she was here, cradling her in her arms, allowing her to break.

She didn't want someone to tell her 'it's going to be okay', she just needed someone to be here and comfort her. She wasn't sure what she wanted to hear, but she knew one thing... she wanted Kara.

She knew it was selfish of her, she didn't deserve someone as amazing as Kara

"It's going to be hard" Kara muttered softly, she leaned her chin on Lena's head, pulling her girlfriend tighter into her arms, hard enough to let her know that she wasn't going to leave, "It's going to take months... if not, years, to accept the fact that his gone.

Kara knew what it was like, losing someone so suddenly, "And it doesn't get any easier... there will be a permanent hold in your heart that you can't fill, no matter what you do. But.... Overtime, you learn how to live with that hole in your heart, even if it feels like you won't"

Lena didn't need to look up to see the anguished and haunted look that was plastered on Kara's face, she could hear it in her voice... the pain of losing everything and everyone that you love.

"And as you learn to live with that hole in your heart, I will be right here, by your side, holding you in my arms. I will be here, every step of the way... just remember that you are not going through this journey alone... you have Winn.... And you have me"

Never, in Lena whole life, had she felt this way.

Safe.

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Winn decided to get some Chinese food and potstickers for Kara. By the time he returned it was already dark. He walked up to Lena's room and opened the door, he smiled at the sight of Lena sleeping peacefully with Kara sitting on a chair next to her.

"Hey" He whispered as he entered the room with a bag of pot stickers.

"I knew I smelt pot stickers" Kara muttered excitedly. She quietly stood up and softly ran to Winn who gestured her to come outside so they didn't wake Lena up.

Kara softly closed the door behind her, "How did that happen?" Winn asked as he pulled out a tray of pot stickers just for Kara.

"She fell asleep in my arms" She muttered softly, she remembered hearing Lena's heart beat slow down, and the shallow breaths escaping her lips. She knew that Lena had practically cried herself to sleep.

"So, you carried her and tucked her in?" Winn asked with a small smile on his face.

"Of course. I'm pretty sure my arms aren't the most comfortable place to sleep in plus, I don't want her to get cold" Kara might not be affected by the cold air, but she could tell when the temperature was high or low. She bit into the pot sticker and hummed in delight.

Winn knew that Lena would argue with Kara on that one. Winn smiled softly at Kara's delighted face when she bit into the potsticker, but then he remembered the memory that he had recalled from his mother's funeral, "Hey Kar"