I have things wrong with me, some people make a big deal about the things like it's affecting them and others just accept l it and move on.
I have chronic anxiety and about everything thing you can think of and every version of it.
I have depression and the days I think about doing the un-doable I have to make sure I can slap myself away from that.
I have night terrors and they are usually caused by my anxiety and stress which leads to some old fears and bullies/tormentors coming back to mind again.
I have uncontrollable shaking and it makes some things awkward when someone sees it and just asks why and I don't have an answer.
I have an eating disorder and it makes looking in the mirror a constant challenge and normal every day things for this girl kinda difficult.
I have bald spots from two years of only eating just a baggy of carrots, or a half a pop tart, or a bottle of water, or just stare at dinner.
I have sleeping problems and it sucks when you get night terrors the same night you can only go to bed at one in the morning.
I have confidence issues because I was made fun of for being me and for looking the way I did.
I have self image issues and no matter what I do I will never be happy with the way I look and it kills me inside that I can't change it.
I have OCD mostly about my personal belongings because of an awful house fire and then for the next two years after that some "popular kids" would take my stuff from me and brake my pencils and write on my papers and destroy my notebooks.
I wish I could go back and tell myself that my parents loved me no matter how much I weighed or no matter how dumb I was they would always think I was still intelligent or no matter how scared I got I could always remember I am safe or no matter how many people made fun of me and called me names and took my stuff and broke it that they where just jerks looking for the easiest target to make them look stronger and feel better or that when someone you consider your best friend might not be if they say awful things to you and have their boyfriend join in.
I have so many things wrong with me and I accepted that a long time ago but the people who caused it had to be farther messed up then me earlier on to do such awful things to someone they don't even know the name of.
