To The Boy with Hazel Eyes; e.d

Researching late family members

Let's get one thing straight:
I'm not internet stalking Ethan's late brother to be creepy, it's for research purposes.

I turned on the hospital's computer found in the library and go onto google. As I typed in 'Grayson Dolan', the first few recommendations that popped up were 'Grayson Dolan death', 'Grayson Dolan heart death', 'Is Grayson Dolan dead?'.

My heart clenched as I write his name and hit enter. Immediately, articles from TMZ and Tigerbeat pop up, the head line explaining his passing.

I decided to click on his Wikipedia page since it was the only source I could find that would give me the information I was looking for.

I scrolled down to his personal life and read the short paragraph, the sentence beginning with his birthday and his death date.

'Grayson Bailey Dolan (December 16, 1999 - February 18, 2017) was an enormously popular video creator on YouTube and Vine who gained fame alongside his twin brother, Ethan Dolan.'

My heart skipped when I read Ethan's name. I guess he wasn't kidding.

I read the section where it read 'Death'; It said exactly what Ethan told me.

I felt like I was going to throw up.

I decided to leave the page and find some videos. I coudn't find their channel, but I found some videos that some fans have prerecorded and have posted for the rest of the world to watch and enjoy.

I put my earphones on and clicked the video that was called 'Valentine's Day Date (CHALLENGE)' and apparently that was their last video before Grayson passed.

Once they showed up on screen, I was blown away.

Grayson looked exactly like his brother, except the hair, and the voice was deeper and softer. I giggled at some parts before Ethan began asking questions and I just watched and listened to his happy voice.

His hair was longer, and it had a purple streak. Now it's just black and shorter.

As he ate the toothpaste cupcake, I couldn't stop laughing. They're so funny when they're together, I could tell why they had a large fan base.

When Ethan shot a smile at the camera, my heart skipped a beat and I blushed.

Ethan explained how he notices a girl's eyes when he meets them made me go back to the day where he wrote the letter back to me and it said 'to the girl with pretty brown eyes'.

I watched a few more of their videos before I looked at the fan edits, and there were a lot.

So many girls crying on camera, making videos about Grayson, saying that he'll always be an angel and paying their respects.

But there were tons of news articles about girls who killed themselves, or harmed themselves due to his death. One article read about Ethan's suicide attempt.

I clicked on the article talking about it.

'After tragic death of his younger twin brother, 17 year old Ethan Dolan decides that he cannot live without his best friend. The teen was admitted to an asylum in New Jersey after two attempts that almost put himself 6 feet under.'