Tainted Love.

Missed.

I walked with my friends to the assembly hall as I sat down in a cream chair. My whole group sat around me and we waited for the whole secondary students to settle. I glanced over to the back door to see John walking in with his friends. My breath hitched and my heart was literally skipping beats. He glanced over to me and shot me a grin. My face was completely blank and I looked back to the stage. My principle walked up on stage, and made us all settle.

“It has been a busy month. The basketball boys and football boys won the championship, which is a massive event. We have been going into competitions lately, and we have been dominating. So I am proud of all of you, individually.”

I brought my hands together as I applauded him.

“Any questions?” He asked as he searched the crowd.

I also searched the crowd, looking for any hands up. I realized a hand up, as I looked down to see John.

“Yes.” My principle asked.

“Uhm, can I get on stage to announce something?” John asked.

I immediately stiffened.

“Yes sure.” He answered.

John made his way up to the stage. He stood up and tapped on the microphone twice. Everyone started to whisper and John coughed into the microphone. Everyone looked at him and quietened. I looked at him solemnly as my heart started to pound in my chest furiously.

“Good morning everyone. You are all probably wondering why I have come up to do a speech. Well you are all soon to know why. So a week ago an incident happened between me and Alexis. And I was asked if she meant anything to me. And I’m guessing you all know. Do you all?” He asked.

My heart felt like it was going to come out. I kind of felt dizzy. Everyone’s eyes were going between me and John. Everyone whispered and they all mimicked a ‘Yes’.

“That’s good. Well… I was caught up in the moment, and I didn’t know what was going on. My heart was beating too fast. I cared for nothing but myself. I’m stupid. When they asked if I still had feelings for Alexis, I said no. But… I was wrong. I was lying. She means so much to me, ever since we started the project together; she changed my life to the better. But I hurt her instead. I hope this is going to change her mind about me, and I hope she will accept my apology. But if she doesn’t, I will understand… because I hurt her so much. Sarah, I never loved you. The first time I knew what love was, was when I met Alexis. There is just something different about her. She is amazing. I love the way she smiles, I love the way she scrunches her nose when she is confused, I love the way she knots her eyebrows when she is curios.. I love so many things about her, she is just flawless. She is beautiful.” He said in one breath.

Everyone was now so quite.

I was blushing so hard core right now. The tears were about to fall down, but I bit my lip to prevent it from happening.

“Uh, so yeah. I am really sorry for what I put you through... And this is when I am going to tell you my true feelings. I love you Alexis. I love you. I’ve never felt this way for someone before, as cliché as this sounds… It’s the truth. I’m so sorry for caring for myself only, for not caring about you. I’m sorry for not taking care of you, for hurting you. I’m sorry for being a total jerk… I’m just so fucking sorry Alexis. I’m fucking sorry.” He explained.

My stomach was churning by now. I didn’t know what to do. I was sitting at the back. So I turned around and dashed for the door, I wiped my eyes and stood near the door. I breathed heavily.

I nearly jumped as someone touched my arm. I turned around and someone crashed their lips on me. It was John. If I kiss him, I forgive him. If I break apart, I don’t forgive him. I forcefully pressed my lips against him as he gave the same force back. We kissed passionately as all the thoughts in my mind disappeared. I was glad to feel his lips on mine again, after a long time. I had missed him.