Tainted Love.

Secret.

~FLASHBACK~

~ So the 'Devil Inside' was a horrible movie. But there were a few funny parts to it, otherwise i had shit in my pants. But John would usually close my eyes, and hug me from the side.. His body would give warmth to mine, and id automatically feel secure. I felt secure in his arms.. While the movie was on, he grabbed a hold of my hand, and dragged me outside of the cinema.

"A-Al-Al-ex-Alexis?" John stuttered.

I dont know why, but my heart started to pound, and these massive butterflies flew in my stomach.

"Yes?" I replied confidently.

He sighed loudly, as he fiddled with his fingers.

"I- I.." He mumbled.

"What John, you what?" I repeated.

Just as i was about to question him, my back was against the wall, and his lips were against mine. He kissed me passionately, and i did back. We finally broke apart.

"Ive been holding myself the whole day, trying not to kiss you." He said as i blushed, but good he didnt see from the dark.

I looked up to his brown eyes, as i smiled.

"I wanted to say that, i really like you.. Really, really like you." He continued.

My heart was literally out of my chest, and i was scared it was going to beat inside to his chest.

-"But, i want to keep our relationship in secret.." He continued.

Then a pang of hurt hit me. Why doesnt he want to be with me outside? Outside where everyone could see us?.. It hurt.

"Why?" I blurted as he looked at me.

"Because its the best for us. And plus, its better to be like this. A secret, a secret we both share, and that no one else knows of. So do you like me?" He said as my thoughts changed, and it sounded sexy, like a whole "secret" relationship.

"Yeh, I do like you, really, really like you. But, arent you going out with the new chick?" I said as i mumbled the end.

"Yeh i am, but i like you.. Not her." He said as he lifted my chin up to kiss me. I smiled into the kiss, as we walked back into the movie. Well, we were on the bottom of it, so when you walk into the movies theres a black place, we were there, anyway.. ~

I sighed to myself, as i got out of bed. I scratched the top of my head, and a idea struck me. I should change the colour of my hair.. Nah, too early. I dont want to have white in my hair at the age of 30. I got up, and walked over to the bathroom, doing my ordinary things. I then walked out and went into my closet, grabbing my ugg boots. I walked out and made my way into the lounge room, it was Sunday. And my dad went out for extra work today, dont know why. It was a shit day today, the weather was horrible, cold and dull. I feel depressed in these weathers. I had forgot my ipod, and my phone. So i quickly rushed over to my room, grabbing my needed items and going back downstairs. I went into my contacts, searching for 'John' I had changed the name after Jodie had writted a gay name. I messaged him.

'Hey, how are you my little secret?'

I then got out and messaged Jodie.

"Heey gurl. Hows it going? I havent been talking to you for a long time. Come over to my place today? I miss you babyy! xo"

As i sent that to Jodie, my phone messaged. The butterflies came again, as i looked at my messages.

'Dad'.