My wings

Hurt

Dean pulled me up from the ground, and they brought me back onto the couch. I was so out of it, I didn't see Dean touch my wing, until I felt it.

"Dean..." I coughed up some blood, "please stop..."

"I'm truly sorry Cas, but you will die if I don't clean the wound," he said with determination.

"It doesn't matter, I'm going to die either way," I mumbled. Dean stopped cleaning my wound and looked tooken a back.

"What!" he said surprisingly, "you aren't going to die."

"That is why I called my brother, to see if he could help and...." I started but was interupted.

"I can't" said my big brother, Gabe, who ssuddenly appeared in the living room.

"What the hell?" said Bobby shocked.

Dean then said, "what are you?"

Gabe looked like he was thinking, "we are angels of the lord."

Sam spoke with seriousness, "there is no such thing."

Dean  looked over at me as if he was asking if it was true, I just slightly nodded my head.

"How do we save her?" Dean said as he looked at me to Gabe with a concerned tone.

"She would have to save hereself and with a injuring that severe..." Gabe said as he peered over to me, "she would probably die if she tried healing herself."

I fell asleep and I dreamt for the first time in forever, I dreamt of my past, when I first met Dean Winchester. I was walking to my new dorm, when I met the man who would change me in so many ways,  Dean Winchester. 

All of a sudden I woke up with Dean lying beside me, telling me to not let go.

"I'm not going to let go..." I said. Dean looked up at me and he had a tear in his eye, he quickly brushed it away.

"Cas..." he started, but I interupted him.

"I am going to go to the bathroom  and I am going to go heal myself." I said, as more blood dripped down my mouth. I stumbled getting up and my wings were dragging on the floor, leaving blood trails behind them.

"Cas wait..." Dean said caring, "let me be with you when you do." I nodded my head, because talking hurt too much. He caught up to me, he picked me up and carried me to the bathroom.

I grabbed a towel to prevent me from screaming, extremely loud. I touched my wings, I began to cry and then I felt Dean grab my empty hand. My blue grace, began to whirl around my wings and I looked over at Dean, he was watching the grace in awe. The grace went inside the wound and it felt like  being struck by lightning a thousand times at once. I fell and my body went limp.

Deans POV

I was holding her hand when all of a sudden she tensed up and went still, she was on the ground, not breathing. Her wings were so bloody and they were misshaped. I fell to my knees and I began to cry the hardest I ever had. I was shaking her body, trying to get her to wake up and I stopped because I knew she was dead. I pulled her up to me and I kissed her, even though she didn't know, I loved her as soon as I saw her. Realizing she was an angel only made me love her more and now she's dead.

I picked up her body and I ran down to where Sammy, Bobby and Gabe were. "We have to bring her back!" I shouted mostly at Gabe.

"Dean.." Sammy began, but I gave him one look and he could tell I was dying inside. I looked in Gabe's direction and tears were silently falling down his face.

"You can bring her back!" I said, "you have to...." All of a sudden Gabe was vanished.

I looked over at Bobby and he looked sad only because I was. Then Gabe was back and he looked apologetic, then took Cas's body.

I lyed there and I realized how aweful I was to Cas, I was so rude. I walked out of Bobby's house. He tried to stop me, but I pushed him away and I drove back to my dorm. I was looking over all her stuff, and I realized how much I missed her. I went to the fridge and got a beer, to drink my problems away. I went to bed early that night and I  didn't go to eat.

I woke up in the morning, not to be greeted with Cas's beautiful smile, but the emptiness of her bed. I got up, got dressed and went straight to class, teachers picked on me, but I wasn't thinking of school I was thinking of Cas.

I got done with class and and went back to my dorm, to again drink my problems away. I didn't eat, untill I finally felt I had to. I got so angry, I began to destroy the dorm, I broke framed photos and I threw my phone at the wall. I looked at Cas's stuff and I found the trenchcoat, that I saved, that brought me so many memories. I picked it up gingerly, worring that it could easily fall apart, the same way Cas did. I then got a knock at the door, it was probably Sam and I didn't want to talk to him.

I got another knock, I decided to tell the annoying person to go away. I opened the door to find my black-haired, blue eyed angel.