Take Care of My Girlfriend

[5] Have we drifted too far apart?

[5]

Sangrae’s Point of View

I had changed his bandages and I found no more traces of blood on him. He was sleeping soundly, though he looked so exhausted.

I’m done now. Dongwoon must have called me to tend to Gikwang’s wounds. I need to leave, before Gikwang wakes up and sees me here. I don’t want to see him hurt, even though I see it reflecting in his face right now.

Gikwang, I want you to move on. Just forget about me.

I gave in to my desire of watching him. These were moments I always treasured way back. His eyes were closed. The slow rise and fall of his chest indicated that he was breathing normally. His features, they were still the same. The dark circles and the puffy bags under his eyes bothered me. He must have been crying.

I remember, the day we broke up, on my nineteenth birthday. I cried so hard, because I caught him with another girl. Not only that but he also slept with her.

---*flashback*                                                                 

“Let me go....let me go,” I said in between sobs, struggling to get out of Gikwang’s grasp.

“I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry Sangrae, please, please, don’t go, let me explain,”

“There is nothing...” i struggled and buried my nails on his arms. He lost to the pain and accidentally let go of me. “There is nothing to explain, Lee Gikwang!!” I screamed as loudly as I could.

“Listen to me, just let me explain...” a slap across his face cut him off.

I stormed off of his apartment building and wiped off all the tears from my eyes, but I couldn’t. I was too hurt. What he did to me was unforgivable!

I rushed out as I slammed the main door of the building and stopped when I was outside. I turned back and looked, but no one was there.

Gikwang never even chased after me.

I cried harder. I was hurt. Why? Why does this have to happen to me? I loved him and he does this to me? Had he never loved me back? Why did he have to do this? Is it because I didn’t want to do it with him, and he looked for another girl to do it with?! Jerk! Stupid jerk! You’re a stupid jerk, Gikwang!! I lowered my head and walked to the nearest wall I could lean on. I slid down my back and crouched down, hugging my knees.

“S-Sangrae-noona?” a voice appeared out of nowhere. I wiped my tears before I looked up. Standing there, was Dongwoon, Gikwang’s childhood friend whom he speaks about very often.

“D-Dongwoon~ah?” I managed to speak, even though my voice was breaking.

“Why are you crying? Did something happen? Why are you out here? Is Gikwang~hyung not inside?” he asked with sincerity in his tone, his eyes concerned.

I looked at him and remembered Gikwang again. I started to cry and I stood up and threw my arms around Dongwoon. I didn’t want him to see that I was crying. It was embarrassing.

“Noona-?!” he panicked, before giving in to my hug. He was...warm.

“Can I cry on your shoulder? Even just for now?” I whispered against his shoulder.

“Oh, okay. Sure. Don’t you want me to call Gikwang?”

“No, don’t. We broke up,” I said. I was the one who broke up with him. Gikwang gave a reason why I did it.