before
we were going to australia and had to stop at singapore. when he walked off the plane, you started humming a song that i recognized but didn't quite know the name of. suddenly, you started laughing, your tongue poking out from under your teeth. i asked what was so funny, and you pointed to a skyscraper close to us. it looked like a boat had parked there. you said we should take a selfie with that, so we did. and laughed. i loved that.
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after
i was going through your instagram. at our old pictures. there was one of the polaroid we took in singapore. it made me smile. i miss you everyday. i held phil the lion fish close to me and slept. i dreamt that you were still here, next to me. laughing at nothing. making witty comments. smiling like an angel. i was happy. but then i woke up, and faced the truth.song: idle town by conan gray (support him and his music and youtube channel -by the same name, conan gray-)