DIRE (matured Content)

Lil' sister (part 1)

Ilang taon na ba nung huli kaming nagkita... Matagal na din pala. Sobrang miss na miss ko sila pero wala akong nagawa nung nagpunta sila Manila.

I was seven when my parents separated. My dad was a foreman that's why kung saan saan ang assignment. Depende kung saan ang project one time they had their biggest client. Kaso feeling ko naging biggest regret din niya. Biggest nga ba? He had a relationship with the client's niece who is 7 years younger than my dad's age. My parents separated because he got that woman pregnant. Impregnated her? Really? What was he thinking. My mom left us pero si kuya lang sinama niya. That way it's easier na makapagwork siya para mabuhay siya at si kuya.

Each day was a disaster tumira dito si Leila. My dad is as stressed as hell. Week after mom and kuya were gone.. Papa was always drunk. He's always mad. He's not the same father that he used to be. Hinde makausap ng matino and because of that nagkaroon ng miscarriage si Leila. That hit my father. He came back to his senses. Everyday I was waiting na baka sakali balikan ako ni Mama pero hinde dumating ang araw na iyon. Years passed, Papa and tita Leila were still together. She's been good to me. My father knows na he needs Leila to take care of me kaya naman hinde na din sila naghiwalay. Mabait naman siya sa akin and she loves my father so much. Imagine who would have thought na may martir pa pala sa mundo kala ko sa soap operas o dramatic wattpad stories lang un. Pumayag si Papa na magsama sila pero hinde siya pwede mabuntis o magkaanak. After having miscarriage for a month siyang depressed. Inalagaan naman siya ni Papa pero nun magaling na siya nakipaghiwalay si Papa at pinapauwi na siya. But she has a strong love so she made a deal na gagawin ang lahat. And ayun nga hinde na nga mapakasalan ni Papa hinde pa siya pwedeng bigyan ng anak. Is that what you call love?

No. I don't think so.
I think it's called Bullshit.

I had love my family so much but didn't last.
I was in love too before but look where it brought me. I had my nightmare then.

Matagal din bago ako nakacope up noon. I wanted my mom back then pero wala. But now she'll be there na when I needed her.

May kaya pala ang grandparents ko sa side ni Mama. I never had a chance to meet them. Forbidden love pala kasi sila ni Papa. Ang magulang pala ni Mama dahilan ng pagkamatay ng magulang ni Papa. Pang telenovela ang kwento ng lovestory nila. So ayun napamanahan si Mama ng bahay..iyong catering services at isang shoe outlet.

And since matagal ko na sila gusto makasama at para din magkaroon ng bago environment sa Manila ako mag- aaral ng college.

I hope my life would be different. Wala naman naging asawa si Mama doon. And I have my goals in life I don't have time for lovelife matagal ko nang sinumpa iyon.

I was busy editing our report when he started caressing my cheeks. When i look at him he kissed me hungrily. I responded to his kisses.

"Fuck! You're making me crazy Catalleya." he said between our kisses.

We're here in his uncle's house. No one's here. Hesitation was running in my mind but he told me we're just going to use the internet for our group project so
I accompanied him.

A soft moan escaped from my lips when he started kissing my neck and because of that his hands started to roam around. His left hand was rubbing my back while his right was touching my waist. And when i didnt made any protest his right hand was already inside my blouse going up to unhook my bra. And that hit me. Tinulak ko siya ng bahagya.

"I'm sorry." he coldly said. At sinuklay ang buhok gamit ang mga daliri niya. Nakatingin lang siya sa kisame. Ako naman ang nataranta.

"Babe are you mad? I'm sorry. I just can't do it. Masyado pa tayong bata para dyan" I told him while holding his hand.

"It's okay. I guess hinde mo naman talaga ako ganun kamahal. Because you don't trust me" inalis nya ang kamay ko at tumayo papunta sa kitchen agad ko siyang sinundan

"Please babe wag ka na magalit. Okay you can touch me but you can never enter?" i said with uncertainty. Was that a question or a statement...

Pero wala sinabi at tinalikuran lang ako. Agad ko siyang hinatak paharap at tumingkayad at hinalikan siya. He was surprised to the point of leaving his mouth open so my tongue easily went its way inside. He kissed me with same intensity.

Shit! Shit! I don't want to remember him.