Lose Control

2.1

All for the Benefits,
part one of three

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"Seduce him."

Hindi ko ba alam kung tatawa ba ako o mangingiwi na lang sa suggestion nitong si Roanne. Kasasabi ko lang na hindi ko malapitan ang asawa ko, ang ipapagawa niya pa sa'kin e akitin ito.

Mukha ba talagang kakayaning kong gawin ang sinasabi niya?

"Wala namang mali sa sinabi ko, Chrys, and you know it. Seducing is nothing. People maybe used to sex shaming like dapat lahat ng babae Dalagang Pilipina. In short, dapat mala-Maria Clara ang bawat galaw. There's nothing wrong with it naman. Nasa Pinas tayo and people are conservative. Okay, okay, I got that point. You have needs, though. Lahat naman tayo... and when I say needs, I mean sexual needs. Kapag lalaki na ang nakipagsex sa maraming babae, okay lang sa lahat. Pero kapag babae na, iba na agad ang tingin. At isa pa, kasal naman kayo at isa lang naman siyang magiging partner mo ah. Actually, enough of what people may think of you. Anong mali kung mag-sex kayo?"

Mabuti lang ay nasa loob kami ng opisina ko dahil kung nasa public na lugar kami ay baka natakman ko na naman ang bibig nitong kaibigan ko sa walang kamatayang pagiging straight to the point niya.

Her well-made arguement is on point as usual and it freaking made sense like always.

"Seryoso ako, Chrys. Vain is my friend, too. Maniwala ka, mase-seduce mo 'yun!"

Seduce my husband Vain Asimov?

Kulang sa kape 'tong kaibigan ko.

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Being married for a couple of benefits still lives in this generation. Arrange marriage. Nakakasuyang pakinggan pero meron pa talaga niyan. Unfortunately, as per my grandfather's dying wish, I was married to a man I never met my whole life. Well, not until six months ago.

It wasn't a big deal. Again, it was for a couple of benefits and those benefits are enough to sacrifice our freedom.

Mutual agreement. Walang pilitan, walang diskusyon maliban sa ilang parte ng kasunduan. It was a hassle-free contract signing rather than a stressful arrange marriage. We still had a church wedding but it was as normal and as dull as people should expect it to be. Hindi naman namin mahal ang isa't isa para sa isang church wedding pero iyon ang naging desisyon ng mga matatanda.

Our contract besides the marriage contract we signed was just between the two of us. It wasn't formal contract in paper but we had a one-to-one talk over some cold coffee about this.

We will keep our relationship work and by work we mean companionship. Hindi man namin mahal ang isa't isa, mabuti nang kahit paano ay alam naming pakisamahan ang isa't isa. He insisted on being honest with each other. Mas madali daw ang communication kapag honest.

Our relationship is an open one. Ang kondisyon na 'to, ako mismo ang nagsabi. He was kind of surprised by it but I explained the sense of it. Instead of going to point where one of us will be cheating, why not make it to a condition where both us are allowed. Just a strict note, kung gagawin mo man, siguraduhin mong ikaw lang ang nakakaalam.

Wife duties like cooking for the husband must be done every Saturday mornings. Husband duties like taking the wife on dates must be done every Sunday evening. This is a fun part of whole situation, I enjoy weekends looking forward to these. Weekdays are the same old days we almost don't see each other because of work. Kaya mas 'di hamak na ramdam namin parehong may asawa nga pala kami tuwing weekends na.