Fuck Under the Thin Sheets

II

"Ano yung bigla ka nalang niya napagtripan bigyan ng pagkain? As in ganun ganun lang?" Raine asked with also, disbelief after ko ikwento sakaniya ang mga nangyari kahapon
"Weird" i said and i sighed, she did also but went closer to me and faced me.
"Corinne. Promise me. Hindi ka na magpapa apekto sakaniya" she said with a worried eyes. I smiled at her.
"I'll be fine lorraine don't worry" she sighed with relief.
"Okay sige. Maiwan muna kita diyan punta lang ako ER"paalam niya saakin saka ako tumango.

Sumandal ako sa upuan ko saka minasahe ang sintido ko.
Kahit talaga anong gawin ko, hindi ko maintidihan ang mga kilos ni kurt kahapon. How can he just suddenly be nice to me e sa lahat na taon pagkatapos namin maghiwalay wala na siyang ibang ginawa kundi magalit sakin. He never even looked at me once kahit na nasa iisang hospital lang kami dalawa yung parang ba na hindi ako nag eexist sa mundo niya na buti pa hangin ramdam niya ako hindi.

Pinagsawalang bahala ko nalang yun at umiling nalang. It means nothing. I remnded myself. Saka niligpit ang pinagkainan ko para makapag rounds nako.

Lumabas ako ng doctor's lounge at tumungo sa elevator. Nang may naramdaman ako taong tumabi sakin. By this weird somehing inside my stomach alam ko na kung sino iyon.at di na nag abalang tumingin pa.
"Did you eat well?" Bigla niyang sabi na ikinagulat ko. Hindi ko siya sinagot thinkng na may iba siya kausap kahit na obvious na kami lang naman dalawa doon.
"Corinne-" magsasalita pa sana siya ng biglang bumukas ang elevator. Pero puno na ito dahil galing pa sa baba nag desisyon nako na mag hagdan nalang at saka siya sumunod.

"Corinne. Let's talk" bigla niya ako hinawakan sa braso forcing me to face.
"I need to talk to you" and i looked at him in his eyes only to see an eyes still filled with hatred
"May dapat ba tayong pag usapan?" Tanong ko sakaniya
"I have something to tell you. Meet me at the parking after you OPD" saka na niya ako binitiwan at iniwanan.

I panicked a little bit. Does he know? Does he already know what happened? pero hindi, i comforted myself, ako lamg ang nandoon at wala ako pinagsabihan. Imposible.

Natapos ang duty ko sa ER at sa OPD na may takot sa dibdib ko. Ano ba ang gusto niya.

Kagaya ng sinabi niya I went to the parking lot and met him there. I saw him leaning against the wall near his car.

"Kurt" i called him and he turned to me.  He walked towards me and grabbed my face and kissed me hard.
Tinulak ko siya but he just pulled me closer until i pushed him the strongest i could do.

"WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM KURT!!!" I shouted at him.

"YOU ARE THE PROBLEM CORINNE!" He shouted amd i met his gaze. They were scary. I am confused right now. What does he want.

"You have no idea what you left of me when you decided to break my heart. I was worthless and miserable without you corinne" sambit niya na may diin ang bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig niya. Tears suddenly run into my cheeks.
"You left me hanging. Sana pinatay mo nalang ako" he said and i sobbed harder. If only you knew kurt. Kung alam mo lang lahat. Himdi ko na siya kayang tignan.

"You do not know how much strength i needed to take for me to be able to stand beside you again. And now, i am able to and it's pay back time corinne. Pagbabayaran mo lahat ng ginawa mo saakin lahat ng sakit. Lahat"

Finally, inangat ko na ang tingin ko with a confused look.

"What are you-"
"From now on. Sakin ka na. Sakin ka na titira and you do whatever I tell you to do"
"What-"
"Sa ayaw at sa gusto  mo"
"You are impossible" and he smirked at me.

I just couldn't understand why.
"Why are you doing this kurt?"
"You asked me before, what you can do to make it up to me. This is it. I made up my mind. You'll move in tomorrow night. Remember kung kinakailangan buhatin kita gagawin ko." Yun lang at saka na siya sumakay sa kotse niya at pinaandar iyon.

Napasandal ako sa pader sa panlalambot. This is not happening i told myself.
But i dont think i am left with a choice. A part of me also says that i deserve this. And i deserve to pay all the pain that i have caused the only man who loved me and the only man i will ever love.