Fuck Under the Thin Sheets

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Nagising ako dahil sa liwanag na nanggagaling sa bintana ko. 36 hours of duty amd my bed feels like heaven right now.
I went out of my bed and went to the bathroom to do my morning routines before I went to th kitchen. Binuksan ko ang ref at laking bwisit ko nang makita ko na purp tubig lang laman. Hindi pa pala ako nakapag grocery dahil sobrang hectic sa hospital ngayon.

Nagpalit ako ng shorts and at nagpatong lang ng sweatshirt sa sando ko at kinuha ang mga susi ko at wallet saka nako lumabas. Mag ttake out nalang ako sa restaurant sa baba.

Pre duty ko ngayon meaning wala akong pasok kaya ngayon araw ko na din balak mag grocery.
Pagkababa ko ng condo, agad ako tumungo sa restaurant and tingin agad sa mga pagkain sa menu nila nang may bigla ako naramdaman may tumulak saakin.
"Sorry" he said in a deep voice that i miss. Na istatwa ako doon sa kintatayuan ko.
"You live here?" He asked but i didn't amswer.

"Ma'am ano po order ninyo?" Tanong ng waitress.
"Mamaya nalang" i said amd broke out the line and went outside to breathe.
Tumuloy tuloy ako sa elevator trying to contain my emotions.

In three years, ngayon ko lang ulit narinig ang boses niya.
In three hears, ngayon lang niya ulit ako kinausap.

It feels weird. A painful kind of weird. Seeing those eyes. Those empty dark eyes.

Pumasok nako sa condo ko at tiniis ko nalang ang gutom.
Tutal, nawalan din naman talaga ako ng gana kumain.

What is he doing here? Dito na ba siya nakatira. Or gabriella?.

Nahiga ako at pumikit nalang ulit.

If only i could make things right.
Pero hindi na. And to be honest, it's better off this way. Things were extremely painful before at mas mabuti na ako nalang ang kamuhian niya kaysa ako ang mabuhay sa muhi sakaniya.
I loved him too much, and if only i had the chance to bring back the past, I would just sacrifice myself. Myself. Yung wala ng ibang damay.

Di ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako. At nagising nalang ako sa katok sa kwarto ko.
Nagtataka ako lumapit sa pntuan because i am not expecting to see anyone today.

Laking gulat ko when i saw a tall and handsome man with dark eyes infront of my door. Again, i frozed to where i am standing.

"I just. I know you haven't eaten anything yet, so here, i brought you food" he said while offering a plastic bag for me where i smell chicken amd pasta.
"Just a friendly gesture i guess. You never went to the restaurant again after this morning and it's been 3 hours. It's pass one pm." He said.

"Look. I know this awkward. And believe me. I did not want to do this. But here. Take it." He continued talking. I accepted the plastic bag and he smiled at me.
"Are you staying here now?" I asked
"Yup. Gab moved in the other building so i figured,mif our scheds wont match atleast our place diba" he said.
"So i gotta go. Bye have a nice day corrine" he said and left me there hanging.

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I hurriedly went back inside my room and closed it immediately. I found gabriella sitting on the couch with a weird smile on her face

"So? Ano nadala mo na?" She said with a grin
"Damn. Don't make me do it again gab" and she laughed
"Look di ka na naawa sa tao. She never went out after your little interaction this morning. Hindi na nga lumalabas ng hospital hindi mo pa hahayaan kumain?" She said
"Wala ako pakialam" i said.
"Well I do. It's about time you stop torturing corinne kurt. Move on now. " umupo ako sa couch at sumandal sa kaniya.
"Do you really want me to move on or you jist want to have a boyfriend already" and she laughed.
"Partly. I cant even have a boyfriend you know because all you do is introduce me as your girlfriend!! Paano naman ako diba" i chuckled.
"You know what. My job is done here, i have to go now" paalam niya saka siya bumeso saakin. Hinatid ko siya hanggang sa pintuan at saka na sinara ang pinto.
Naglkad ako papuntang kusina and opened the ref to take some beer. Huminga ako hg malalim trying to remind myself why i had to do this.

I'll make you suffer corinne. And you will be mine again. And this time, you can never escape me