Walkers, Three Mermaids, Two Singers, and a Sheriff's Son

Chapter 11: Sneaking out

Noelle's POV

"But you're so hypnotizing. You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep. And I can see this unraveling. Your love is where I'm falling. so please don't catch me. This is love, please don't break me. I'm giving up. so just catch me." Delilah finished. "That's really good." I interrupted. "Thank you." She said shyly. "So are we gonna talk about you and carl now?" I asked, wiggling my eyebrows. She laughed and nodded her head. "So you wanna know about carl and I." She said teasing me a bit. "Yes. Now tell me." I said impatiently." No details left out?" She asked. "No details left out. You have to include everything. Now come on. Tell me!!!" "Okay. Well, carl and I were told to watch the prison. But when I sensed your danger, I wanted to go and get you without carl so he wouldn't question me about my powers. He wouldn't have it, so I used it anyway without telling him fully. After we saved you, he wanted to know. But I didn't tell him at first. And he walked away, upset with me. It made me feel bad. And so I told him. He was surprisingly fine with it. Then we went back to the prison and waited for you to come back. He called me pretty and told me that I made everything brighter for him, and he kissed me. And of course, I kissed him back." She said, worry in her voice. "Oh my god. That's amazing. And adorable. But wait... You told him our secret?" I said, glaring at her as I stood up. "I did. But I trust him. More then I've trusted anyone. And that's coming from Delilah Rose Johnston. The girl who has trust issues." "But you didn't ask me, Delilah. You probably didn't ask Siren either. We SHARE this secret. You can't just go around telling people without asking us first. Even if you trust them. You have to remember that this isn't just your secret. It's ours too." "It's not like you were here to talk about it." She mumbled. "That isn't my fault. Sure. I chose to go with them, but I did it to help out. So don't be mad at me for that. And you could've waited till I got back. I haven't even told Harry yet. I trust him probably just as much as you trust Carl. I don't know how he's going to take it. And I want to wait. But when I do decide to tell him, I'm going to ask first. But I won't be asking you. You didn't ask me, so I don't have to ask you." "Whatever. You know... I thought that you would be happy that I was able to trust people more than you, but I guess not." She said, frustrated. "I am happy about that. But I still don't think that it was right for you to tell our secret without asking first. I might've told Carl about you and everything that you've been through, but it's..." I stop myself after I realize what I just said. "YOU WHAT?!?!" She yelled. Fuck. What did I do? She wasn't supposed to know that. She's never going to forgive me. "Delilah, I didn't mean to say that. Forget that you heard that." I said quickly. "I trusted you. I thought you would never tell anyone." Tears started to stream down her face. "I only told him because he asked me. He was desperate. He seemed like he really cared. He really wanted to know what was wrong with you. He wanted to know why you're so scared to trust people. Why you keep to yourself. Why you're so mysterious. He just wanted to help you. I did too, and I thought that he could be the one to do that. So I told him... Everything. I'm so sorry, Delilah." I whispered as tears started to stream down my face too. "I told you what you wanted. Now please leave." She said, tears still running down her face. "Please. You have to forgive me. I was only doing what I thought would help you." I said, not doing what she asked me. "I said leave. I will forgive you when I feel that I can trust you again." She stated. "Fine... But you should know that Carl knows about every little detail. Even about when you used to cut. I'm really sorry, Delilah... Just know that I'm really sorry and that I will be here when you forgive me." I sobbed as I left. I walked blindly to my cell, running into Carl on the way there. "Noelle? Are you okay?" He asked, obviously noticing my tears. I looked up at him. "If you hadn't of asked what was wrong with her, then this wouldn't have happened. That fight wouldn't have been as intense. You shouldn't have asked about our secret either. You're so damn nosy Carl. Maybe you should mind your own damn business." I whisper, venom dripping off of every word. "I only asked because I care about her. I needed to know. I'm sorry. And she showed me her power. And I was curious, and she trusted me enough to tell me. Maybe you shouldn't have told me. You're just as guilty, Noelle. And if she wanted to tell me, then it was her choice." He whispers back, just as much venom in his words as mine. "You wouldn't leave me alone until I told you. And no. It isn't just her choice. It isn't just her secret. She could've asked before telling you." "Whatever, Noelle. Listen... I'll try to talk to her. But I can't guarantee that it'll work. I'll try, though." "Thank you..." I whispered, and slowly walked back to my cell. Harry was already sleeping, so I went to go get ready for bed. I then got into bed and had the worst sleep that I've ever had. I woke up the next morning. I looked over, expecting Harry to be there. But he wasn't. I was alone. How could I have been so stupid? Why did I tell Carl something that I promised to never tell? I mean she kept my promise, right? I'm kind of worried, though. What if she broke it after she found out that I broke mine? I hurt her so badly. It could have caused her to break her promise. Just the thought of her doing that again made me want to cry. And the reason would be because of me. I'm a monster. I hurt too many people. I told somebody about Delilah's past, which I promised not to do. I blamed Carl for it when I'm just as guilty. I was angry, but I had no right to blame it on just him. He probably told Delilah for all I know. They both probably hate me. Delilah is probably going to tell Siren, and she's going to hate me too. I can't be trusted. I don't even trust myself. I get up slowly and walk to the bathroom. I need something to relieve my stress... But what? There on the sink... Is my razor. I shakily grab it and place it on my wrist. I look down and tears cloud my vision. I pull the razor away. I can't do it. I told Delilah to stop. I can't start doing it too. That would be a bad example. But... She doesn't have to know. I look back down at the razor in my hand and then at my wrist. I bring the razor back to my wrist, and put pressure on it. I wince at the pain, but that doesn't stop me. I slice it across my wrist 4 more times and then I feel satisfied. I set the razor down and watch as the blood slowly streams down my wrist. I wipe my eyes and get up. I clean up everything and get rid of the evidence. I quickly run to my bag to get a hoodie. I find one and put it on. I then walk to the cafeteria. As I enter the cafeteria, Siren skips happily over to me. "Hey Noelle." She said. "Um... Hi Siren." I look down nervously. "We haven't hung out in a while. Want to hang out later?" She said cheerfully. She's always so happy. How is she always so happy? I don't get it. I wish I could be that happy all of the time. "Sure." I reply with a fake smile. "Great. Meet me in my cell after you're done eating." She then skips away. I then go to get my food, which consists of a granola bar and a bottle of water to go with it. After I finish eating, I walk to Siren's cell. When I get there, there are 5 people sitting and talking in her cell. It was Siren, Liam, Harry, Carl and... Delilah. "What is she doing here?!?!" Delilah and I shout at the same time. "I invited her." Siren replied, pointing at both of us. We glare at each other, but then lose eye contact. This is going to be awkward. "I'm bored." Carl sighed. "I am too. Why don't we do something... Adventurous?" Delilah replied. I looked at her curiously. "Like what?" "Like sneak out of the prison for a little bit. I doubt that anything will happen. C'mon you guys." She said, jumping up and heading towards the cell door. Everybody else got up... Except me. "I don't know... It sounds dangerous. Don't you think?" "Fine Noelle. You don't have to come if you don't want to. Have fun alone." Delilah replied, glaring at me. I sigh, and get up. I walk towards the cell door. "I'm in." I said, smiling a bit. They all cheered and we went outside, being careful to not be spotted. We found a hole in the fence and crawled through. Somebody should fix that later... We walked out into the woods. As soon as we were far enough to not be heard, Delilah started cheering. "We're free!!!" She cheered. We laughed and told her to be quiet. We kept walking. We heard rustling behind us. We stopped and turned around slowly. A group of walkers was slowly approaching us. "Shit. We've got company... What did I tell you? Dangerous. We're going to die." I whisper. Everybody looks scared. Delilah takes out her sword and I take out mine. Harry takes out his knife, Liam grabs his machete, Siren pulls out her bow and arrows, and Carl pulls out a knife. We charge at the walkers and start fighting to our death. Siren and I stick together. Every time she shoots an arrow, she misses. Not good. So I'm going to protect her. "If you think that you can take a bite out of this ray of sunshine, then you're wrong. She's way too cheerful to die." I yell at a walker who tried to bite Siren. I quickly stabbed it in the head and carried on. One walker got a little bit too close and I could smell its breath. "Gross. You need a mint. I know that walkers are supposed to stink, but I never thought that they would smell this bad." I gagged and stabbed it through the head. I hear a bloodcurdling scream and I look to my right. "No. Not her too. I can't lose her. She's one of my best friends. Why is this world so cruel?!?!" I scream, tears rapidly streaming down my face. A walker is on top of Siren, biting into her neck. I run towards it, and angrily stab it in the head. I then fall to the ground and silently cry beside her. Liam rushes over, tears falling down his face. "No. Please. Not her. Take me instead. You can't take her." He screamed up at the sky. Then a walker showed up behind him and bit into his face. I screamed. I picked up my sword and killed the bastard. I then put Liam and Siren out of their misery. "He said take him instead. Not take him too. There's a difference." I sobbed. Delilah and Carl came rushing over. Delilah let out a scream and Carl hugged her. She started sobbing into his shirt. Harry ran over and took one look at who we had lost. He dropped to the ground and started sobbing and shaking violently. "No. Not Liam. Please. Not my best friend. No. You can't take him." He sobbed. I crawled over to him and hugged him. He pushed me away. "Harry... I know that you just lost Liam. I just lost Siren. I need someone. And you look like you need someone too. We need each other. Please. You can't just push me away." I whisper. He ignored me. I just sat there, crying silently. "Guys... We should probably get back to the prison. We don't want to get caught." Carl speaks up. "Carl, it won't matter if we go back right now. We'll still get caught. We will have to tell them how Siren and Liam died. They'll know that we snuck out." Delilah whispers. Carl nods and gets up. He helps Delilah up. He then walks over and helps Harry and I up. We walk back to the prison silently. When we get there, Daryl and Rick are waiting for us. "Where have you guys been?!?!" Rick screams. "We snuck out, dad..." Carl tells him. "You snuck out?!?! What if one of you got hurt? Or worse. What if one of you got killed? Wait. There's only 4 of you. Two of you are missing... Where's Siren and Liam?" Rick asked, sounding worried. We all look down sadly. "I said, where are they?" "They're dead, dad. They got bit..." Carl said. "What? They got bit? Who's idea was it to even sneak out?" Rick asked. Before Delilah can say anything, I speak up. "It was my idea. All mine. We were bored and wanted something to do.... So I suggested that we sneak out. I didn't think that anything would happen..." I lied. Rick looked at me angrily and in disbelief. "You thought wrong. Something did happen. You are to stay in your cell until I can find out what to do with you. You are to also give me your weapons. If you aren't responsible enough to follow rules, then you aren't responsible to have weapons." He said and walked away. We all walked into the prison. I walked to my cell, Harry following after me. "Why did you do that? Why did you lie for Delilah?" He asked. "I did it because I owe her." I replied. "Why do you owe her?" "Because I broke a promise that I made to her. I told Carl about her past. She hates me now and I don't want that." "Oh. Well, that was brave of you. But now you don't have anything to defend yourself with. Was it really worth it?" "Yes. Her friendship is worth it. Her friendship is worth anything. She's all that I have left. Well, except for you. I still have you. But if losing my freedom and weapons gets our friendship back... Then it's worth it." I tell him just as Delilah walks into our cell. Harry looked at us. "I'll let you two talk." He said and walked out of the cell. Delilah looks at me. "You didnt have to do that." Delilah said looking down. "I owe you, Delilah." I replied. "No you don't. I broke your promise before you broke mine. Besides, Carl needed to know. I would've never told him those things." She said trying not to cry. "Wait... You broke your promise?" "Yes." She said and burst into tears. "Delilah... Why?" I asked, tears starting to fall down my face. "N-Nightmares." she said simply. "Delilah, I need you to stop. I know that you couldn't keep your promise last time, but I need you to try harder. Please." "I already promised Carl. I don't know if I can stop. But I will try." "Okay..." "How did Siren stay happy in the apocalypse? I mean, I know you aren't always and I'm not either.." she looked sad when she said Siren's name. "I have no idea. She was always so cheerful. Never once did I catch her with a frown on her face. She was always smiling..." "Ray of sunshine she was." She smiled a little. "Yeah. She could always brighten your mood. And she was always so caring." "Yeah..." "I miss her..." I whispered. "I do too. Believe me." She said. "And Liam. Harry's reaction broke my heart. He didn't want me to comfort him. He just pushed me away. He didn't talk to me until after I lied and said that I was the one who had the idea to sneak out..." "I shouldn't have suggested it in the first place. It's my fault that she's gone. Mine." She said with sorrow in her voice. "I'm the one who gave her the bow and arrows. I should have just left her alone and let her use the rocks..." She hated using rocks, but she was amazing at using them." "Yeah... I don't see why she wanted a new weapon. She's good at using rocks... And I'm pretty sure that Liam thought it was hot." I laughed a bit. She smiled "well I forgive you for telling carl everything." "Thank you..." I smiled. "You're welcome." She sighed. She then walked out of the cell. Rick walked in minutes later. "Delilah told me everything. I don't appreciate you lying for her. So you still have to stay in your cell, but you can keep your weapons. Okay?" Rick told me. I nodded and he left. I sighed and sat on my bed. Harry walked in and lied down on the other bed.... Not next to me. He always lays next to me. This day has been horrible.