It's time

Chapter 23

Wow I finally updated!! I know I haven't updated in like ages but I had really bad writers block. I'm back now so enjoy :)

Love is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to.

Love is putting someone's needs before yours.

Love is happiness, pain, loss and perfect.

Tuesday***

I woke up thinking about the kiss that happened last night. I couldn't stop thinking about how good it felt. I feel so bad that I kissed them back when I'm with Owen but I am only human.

I've been going through who it could be and who it couldn't. It's not Owen because he wouldn't say please and he's never kissed me like that. The kiss felt rushed and dangerous. I only feel that around three people. And I'm sure I don't want it to be any of them.

I don't even know if I should tell someone, tell Owen, tell Becca. Maybe I should keep it to myself until I find out who it is.

I ventured down stairs to where I'm guessing everyone is. I was right because as I got to the bottom of the satires I heard talking. Slowely I opened the door feeling nervious and a little scared that the person from last night will be there. Of course they will be there you're living in the same house for god sakes Lily!

"Lily" Owen said happily.

"Hi" I stayed stood at the door. I didn't want to move and I really didn't want to touch that person. I looked around at everyone but no-one was looking at me.

"What?" Owen asked.

"Nothing" my breathing got a little faster.

"Lily? What's wrong? You're scaring me" Owen moved over to me.

"Owen" I said as my breathing got even faster.

"It's okay. Don't worry I've got you" he held me in his arms.

"Owen, don't let me go" I whispered as I collapsed in his arms. I heard voices around me but they sounded so far away. I felt someone carry me somewhere but I don't know where. Then the next thing I know is waking up on my bed with Owen lied besides me, looking at me.

"What was that?" He asked me stroking me face.

"I don't know" I sat up, "Owen there's something I need to tell you." I got off the bed and stood up not being able to look at him.

"Lily?"

"My cancer is worse then they expected" I twisted my fingers together.

"You'll still get over it though" hope filled his voice.

"They have given me one year to live. But that's with chemotherapy. I'm not going to do chemotherapy" I looked at him. His eyes about to flood with tears, his lip twitching and his nose flaring a little.

"Lily please don't do that" his voice broke.

"Owen I need to tell you something else." I grabbed his hand, "Im breaking up with you."

"No! No you can't do that, please I need you." His face showing all emotions, sadness, anger, betrayal and I caused all of it.

"Owen I don't want to hurt you but if I cause you a little pain now it will not hurt you as much pain later." Tears ran down my cheek.

"But Lily, I love you" he told me and my breath caught a little. He loves me! Owen loves me!

"That's why we need to break up, because you love me and I love you I don't want to hurt you later. I want you to be happy and live with out me" I let go of his hand, "all I need is someone who will be with me no matter what I ask. Be with me when I need them and I can't ask that of you. I'm letting you go Owen."