Adopted By 5SOS ( English Translation )

Chapter 9

Calum's POV.

We wait for Luke and Michael to find us, before we go back to the van. I hold Sofie's hand as we walk. I notice she's still a bit scared, because every time somebody passes us by, she gets a bit closer to me.

"It won't happen again," I say. She looks at me with her chocolate brown eyes and swallows and nods quietly.

"Are you okay with going to the shop another time?" I ask. She nods again in response.

We arrive at the parking lot and get into the van. Sofie sits between Luke and me. I can see she's not feeling very comfortable. She's playing with her own fingers nervously and her breathing is unsteady.

Luke puts his hand on her knee. "You Okay?" he asks worriedly.

Sofie jumps in fear and looks at him with a frightened face.

"Oh, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to scare you," says Luke, while he quickly removes his hand from her leg.

What is going on with Sofie? I don't get it. I thought she already calmed down after what happened in the city.

The van stops and everybody gets out. We carry the furniture for Sofie's new room into the house and put it down on the floor in the hallway.

"Are we going to start working on the room right now?" Michael asks.

"Maybe there's something we need to tell Sofie first," I say.

The others nod. We walk into the living room and sit down on the sofa. Sofie follows us and sits on a chair.

"Sofie," I start. "There is something we need you to know. We're in a band that is famous all over the world. We have lots of fans and we love them very much, but sometimes we can get in difficult situations because of our fame, like what happened this morning."

Sofie nods slowly. "B-but why did you adopt me?" she asks.

"Well... our management kind of forced us to do it. So we would get even more attention," I explain.

It gets quiet in the room for a moment, but then Sofie gets up from her chair and leaves the room. I can hear her walking up the stairs. I want to follow her, but Ashton keeps me from getting up. "Just give her some time to think," he says. I nod and lean back.

Sofie's POV.

I walk up the stair towards my room. Did they really adopt me because they were forced to? Because they wanted attention?

Although I'm happy I could leave the orphanage and the boys are very nice to me as well ( I'm not really sure about Lucas, though ), it still feels a bit weird. Most people adopt a child, because they want to, but the boys adopted me, because they were forced to. What if they actually don't like me? And what if they are just being nice to me, because the have to, but they don't mean it at all? Maybe they think I'm annoying.

You are annoying. You don't deserve to be treated nicely, a voice in my head tells me. I look at the bag that stands in the corner of the room. My bag. I slowly swallow closer to it and start looking for the little box. I hid it somewhere at the bottom of the bag, if I remember it correctly.

When I find it, I open it and carefully hold the knife between my fingers.

The voices in my head have started to argue. Do it, one of them says. You will feel better afterwards.

No, don't do it! What if the boys find out? another voice says.

They don't care about you anyway. They only adopted you because they were forced to!

All of a sudden everything becomes to much for me to bear and I hold the knife tightly. I push it against my wrist and move it across my skin.

When I'm done both of my arms are covered in blood. Tears are streaming down my face as I watch the blood falling down. Now that I understand why the boys adopted me, I don't feel at home with them anymore. I feel like everything they do and say to me is fake.

Just as I want to go to the bathroom to clean my arms and the knife, the door suddenly wings open....

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I'm sorry for letting you wait so long. I'm going to try to update sooner next time.