The story of me doesn't end quite yet, the story of millions who'd wanna talk or write but they don't know where to start or where. I share with you my story because I don't have that many of friends to talk to and when I talk people start judging and it ends up really bad on me. The story of me easy, I don't need opinions I need listeners and ears, in that case, readers and eyes.
Today I don't write about my love story with a guy, or a girl infact I'm writing about the love of my life which was my aunt, my father's sister. I learned so much from my aunt, She was kind and sweet hearted, she was like an angel fallen from heaven. In my eyes she was the angel that I lost, she was protecting me from the world and I lost my savior. I remember all the fun we had together, all the memories that were good and bad together, I remember everything Auntie and I never forgot a thing.
Have you ever fell in love with someone and something really bad happened to them it almost killed you and you couldn't move on? Have you ever lost a grandpa? A sister or a brother? A mother or a father? your baby or your bestfriend? Lots of beloved ones to lose and lots of hearts to be broken in a short time, It's sad.. really sad how life can turn to be. Taking away people you love.
My aunt was my everything, she was my second mother. She raised me and one of my cousins just like our mothers raised us, only she let us have extra treats when they wouldn't. She had a really rough life ending up with a drug addict husband who'd only get the money to get drugs, I never liked him and when I lost her everyone knew how bad he was, My aunt's name was Amal which means hope in English, she was the hope for my life and my future but I lost my hope and I don't know about my future. She was the sweetest creature among them all, She was the one who stood by me when the rest of my father's family would accuse me of things. My aunt had trouble having babies and she found a way for it it was hard, she had three twins and lost two of them after only few days of giving birth to them. She had Zeina whom the only one who survived and poor Zeina had a bad start and I don't know how it'll end up for her.
My aunt was unlucky couple years ago and was diagnosed with Cancer which was so unexpected for the whole family and nobody knew how to react to that, I remember the call back in the balcony on a Friday night we were gathered having fun talking about guys me and my cousin, when my other aunt called my father and told him and he rushed to my mom, telling her when we were right infront of him, he was crying and since then he cried a lot. I never saw my father cry for someone as much as he did for her. We decided to pray for her, we decided to stay strong, for her, for us and for the little kid that needed to be sure that her mother will survive, so she started going for cure in Jordan, she would travel a lot to Jordan we barely saw her anymore and everytime she comes back for a visit she'd look worse and worse and worse, eventually she started losing her hair, her eyebrows, she lost so much weight she was practically a living skeleton. Poor aunty you've suffered a lot in this cruel world, you didn't deserve it so many other bad people deserved it but I guess god always chooses the best people to save from the world.
After a while coming and going, forth and back, Jordan and Egypt we had the call finally in a year and half after she was diagnosed, she was cured, I mean for real like really cured fully cured, My love my everything my bestfriend was given another chance to live but it was gone with the wind. She was coming back and it was August and it's really hot in Egypt, we all went to the airport to welcome her back and everyone was happy. I couldn't believe she was standing right infront of me, completely cured of Cancer, who now gets another chance right? I hugged her so bad that day she told me I'm still weak be careful, I was glad that she was okay and I start taking pictures saving the memories, family reunion, love is in the air, her child dancing around. It was happy moments, happy moments that didn't last forever.
That summer, before school we went to my other aunt in Hurghada where she lives, which is a tourism city and the most beautiful place to think and forget about the world for a while, I remember the chance we had given, having my aunt with us and everyone celebrating, we took her to Aqua park, she was swimming happily, we used to walk for hours talking about how bad the treatment, how she lost her appetite and everything she always wanted and only had to eat mushrooms everyday, I remember everything Aunt. At night, she was the one sleeping next to me I never knew it was her last summer and I hated it, I remember us talking about the future and she used to sew and bake the best cookies ever, She was telling me when you grow up you'll graduate and I'll sew for you the best graduation dress and everyone will be fascinated of how beautiful you are and then in couple years when you're about to get married I'll sew you your favorite wedding dress and you'll look like real angels and I can't wait to see you that day, she teared. I was listening to Terrible Things by Mayday Parade that night before sleeping, and it tells you about the story of a guy who loved a woman but she got sick and died and he tells how life can be so terrible sometimes, she looked at me that night with that wide smile on her face and I remember her saying '' I am fully cured now and unlike her, I'm not dying in few weeks'' and she turned her face and she wished me a goodnight and I was happy, I kissed her forehead and wished a goodnight. We went back from our vacation really happy that all this is going so well and great.
Few months passed by and the happy family is all over the place, it was almost December and we love to get ready for new year's eve all together. She went back to Jordan for a check up and the doctor finds that she was pregnant and she can't be because it only helps the cancer comes back worse so she had to get rid of the baby or die, she comes back to Egypt and she goes to the Pharmacy asking for a medicine the doctor told her to take so the baby can go, the guy who works there apparently was stupid enough to give her the wrong medicine. In Egypt you can get any medicine without doctor's note, you can be a drug addict obviously so easily. My aunt not knowing that this is the wrong medicine takes the pill and sleeps only to wake up rushed to the hospital, her system was stopped completely and the cancer cells came back so fast and much more awful than before, I was supposed to visit her and I'm on the bus going there hoping she'll get better. I reached the hospital and I'm getting out of the bus only to find everyone crying and I'm asking my other aunt where's she and she points to the fridge and I break down to the floor hysterically crying because I can't believe it was her, my aunt has died. I had to be taken away and I couldn't stop crying that day, I just wanted to show her how much I love her, I wanted to thank her for everything she did for me, for being my second mother, I wanted her to keep her promises I wanted her to see me grow up, I wanted her to be proud of me but all I saw was a closed eyes and a sweet smile on her face wrapped in a coffin and ready to be taken away, this time forever. I was depressed for a while, I couldn't believe the truth for couple months. December the 4th was a nightmare for me and still is every year now, it's been almost three years since she's gone but she'll never be forgotten and I'll always love you and I'll always be like what you wanted me to be and one day I'll make you proud.
Losing someone is really a hard thing, losing someone you were truly in love with is devastating. Please appreciate the people you love and who love you in your life, you never know when you're going to lose them. In a blink of an eye they might be gone but for a lifetime.
