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Chapter 4

"Don't bother me today. I want to finish some work...", that's what Yoongi-hyung told us this morning when we were eating. "Don't worry, hyung! We'll be out most of the day.", said Jungkook while siping his banana milk. "Are you sure you don't want to come with us, Tae?", Hoseok-hyung asked me while intensively looking at me. I almost melted on top of the table... Those brown eyes of his... «I dare you to wake up, little Tae... I dare you...»

"Thank you, hyung... But I don't feel like it. I'll take the day to rest.", I told him calmly. I couldn't take my eyes off him...

Now I'm in my room, looking at the sealing. My heart hurts. My eyes sting. And I think I have to agree with Jimin-ssi: I'm depressed, in the clinical form of the word. The warm tears roll down my face. I cry calmly and without any noise. «What if I disappeared?...», I think to myself. I'm getting scared of my own mind...

I get my ass out off the bed. I don't want to be alone. I go to the kitchen and make two cups of coffee. And there I go to fight the beast... I knocked at the door with the sign Genius Lab on it. He's going to skin me alive...

He ignored my first knock. So I knocked again, harder this time. After a few seconds, I see a  slight shadow through the glass door. He's going to kill me...

The door finally opens. "Didn't I say...", he started with an annoyed tone of voice but stopped when he looked at me. He opened the door and moved aside for me to pass. He closed the door and with a calmer and smooth tone, "I only let you in because you bring coffee.". Liar. He let me in because he saw my eyes. They must be puffed from crying. Shit...

I pass one of the mugs to his hands and sit on the sofa next to the door. I think he was waiting for me to say something, but I didn't. And I didn't even look at him. I was looking at the mug in my hands. I was looking to the steam that came out. Since I said nothing, he sat in his fancy chair and continued what he was doing.

I have no idea how long we were there. Yoongi-hyung was working, but from time to time, he took a quick peek at me. The coffee was long gone when he finished what he was doing. He saved everything and put the song playing. "Taehyung, do you like it?", he asked me. It was a calm melody. I like it. "Will it be for us, hyung?", "Yes.".

When the song ended he asked, "What's wrong with you?". I didn't want to answer, so I just said, "I didn't want to be alone...". He took the empty mug out of my hands that I had been holding all this time and put it next to his, "I didn't ask why you came here. I asked what was going on?". I didn't say a word. "Okay... A few days ago Jimin came to me asking how could he help a friend that was depressed. He tried to denied it, but I know it's you.", he said calmly and with concern in his voice, "Tae, what's going on?". I wanted to tell him...

"Tae...", he started sweetly, but I cut him off, "I'm in love with Hobi-hyung and I don't know what to do...", my voice cracked at the end of the sentence. Fuck my tears. They start rolling down my face like a waterfall. I was too ashamed to look at Yoongi-hyung that I covered my face with my hands. "Please don't tell anyone...", I begged my voice nothing more than a whisper.

And then Yoongi-hyung did something I wasn't expecting: he sat next to me and hugged me, "I won't...".

He let me cry on his shoulder, "The door is always open for you, okay?", "Thank you, hyung...". I think V stands for vanish...