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Chapter 6

I'm getting crazier and crazier... I swear Hoseok-hyung is messing with me. I don't know, but he looks at me differently. I must be imagining things... I didn't tell Jimin-ssi or Yoongi-hyung. My headaches are getting stronger and I spend my days in autopilot.
Paying attention to the way the guys talk to me, I can see they know I'm not okay. It's visible. I'm fucked...

"V-hyung, do you want to play video games with me?", Jungkook asked with that bunny smile of his. How could I say no?

When dinner time came, we went to the table. Everything was done already. I don't know what the topic of the conversation was because I was in autopilot again. "Taehyung!", Jin-hyung hiel at me. I jumped in my sit. I was not expecting that, "I'm sorry, hyung. Do you want something?". "What is wrong with you?", Namjoon-hyung asked, "Nothing, hyung. I'm just tired...", please, buy it. Please, buy it! "Bulshit!", fuck... He didn't bought it... "What is wrong? It has been weeks since the last time I saw the normal you. What's happening?".

I put my chopsticks down and took a glance at Jimin-ssi. He looked back at me then he looked at Yoongi-hyung. Hyung looked at him and then lend his eyes on me. I didn't knew what to say. "Tae...", Jimin-ssi said. "Don't.", was the only thing I could say. I wasn't even looking at him. "Okay. I see the two of you know what is going on...", Namjoon-hyung said looking at Jimin-ssi and Yoongi-hyung. Jimin-ssi put his head down and Yoongi-hyung looked at me again.
"Joonie, leave Taehyung alone. He'll tell you what is bothering him when he's ready.", Yoongi-hyung said in a calm and husky voice. "Tae, you can talk to us. You don't need to be scared. We're brothers.", Jin-hyung said. We. Are. Brothers. My heart sunk. I shocked in the tears that instantly started to form in my eyes. I got up and walk fast to my room. "Hyung!", Jungkook called. "I'll go there...", I heard Yoongi-hyung say.

I got to my room and hit the door hard. I don't know what hurts more: my head or my heart. The tears roll down my face. I gasped for air. My throat felt like it was going to close! I was standing in the middle of my room like I was waiting for the end of the world. And I was...

The door swung open and then was closed. Yoongi-hyung hugged me. I cried so much. "Fuck, Tae... You need to get your head together... You killing yourself...", Yoongi-hyung told me with a very concerned tone of voice. "Hyung... W-What should I do? I-I don't know w-what to do...". Yoongi-hyung never let go of me. I had my face in his chest which made my voice sound muffled. "Do you want my help?", he asked. I had no idea of what he was planning but, "Yes... Please... Hyung... I-I can't take this any longer..."

V stands for vain... I'm worth nothing...