Complete 《《 Logan Paul Fan Fic *Discontinued*

T W E N T Y F I V E

I took a step into the house, catching a glace from Lydia. I ignored her, I have better things to worry about. I made my way upstairs, thinking Alex was up there. I nervously walked into our room, to find it empty room.

"F*ck" I mutter.

I turn back around to ask Lydia where Alex is. She tells me that she packed up and left.

I hop back into the Yetti and call Alex. George watches me silently.

"Your call has been forwarded to a-" I hung up, leaning back with a sigh. Where could she be?

I decided to go to one of her favorite cafes. Maybe she would be there.

I park next to the cafe, and can see Alex through the window. George looks at me, but I keep my eyes on Alex. Why is George still here?

I leave the car, and walk into the cafe quickly. I slow down once I get close to Alex, not wanting to seem agressive. She looks up, taking her headphones off. I look down into my thumbs.

"Im a f*cking idiot," I speak.

"You are," she adds confidently. I hate to hear her like this because of me. She was the type of person to never say anything rude. She rarely spoke her feelings or opinion. If she did, her words would become almost silent. For her to have such a rude tone was unordinary. I look up to her for a second, then back to my hands.

"I love you so much, I dont know why I did that. You deserve much better," I continue.

"Glad we're on the same page," she gives a quick smile, slinging her bag atound her shoulder and walking away. I follow her. My eyes water but I try and hide it.

"Alex, I know there is no chance of us together, but I just want to say Im sorry, and I never meant to hurt you. I hope you find someone who treats you much better than me," I finish, as she stands between her car and the open car door. She takes her hands off the top of the door, gets in the car and pulls away. Ill never see her again. I just lost the love of my life.

I wipe a tear from my eye. I stand there in sorrow, motionless. I wipe away the rest of my tears and walk back to the car.

I get in silently and drive back home. George wanted to say somthing, but I could tell he was hesitant.

"Are you okay?" He says softly.

"Im great," I mutter sternly, keeping my eyes on the road and hands tight to the wheel. George is silent the rest of the way home.

I get back to my house and head straight to my room. My mind was to busy to think of how George is getting home.

I get into my room and stare around at the mess. I am so full of emotion that I have become numb. Numb to anything and everything.

I could hear the faint mumbles of George and Lydia downstairs. I lay on the mess of a bed I have, starring at the blurry ceiling.

I hate how the tears roll down my cheek. I hate how I feel. I hate how exposed I feel. I hate how stupid I am.

I lost the love of my life.
Whats the point?
I lost the love of my life.
Whats the point?

Theese thoughts cycle through my head. Im consumed by theese thoughts. They are in control. I have no control.

I get up, tired of sitting in sadness. I wipe off my tears and splash water on my face, hoping it wouldnt be noticeable that I just cried.

I walk downstairs hesitantly. I dont want them to know Im depressed, so I have to continue to live my life and vlog. George and Lydia sit in the kitchen. I sit next to them, and they look up at me. The silence is deadly.

"Are you okay?" George asks hesitantly.

"Yeah, Im fine," I fake. Alex pops into my head, and tears enter my eyes. I blink them away before anyone notices. They were watching me like hawks.

"Logan, its okay to be sad," He adds. I nod, looking over at the door to hide my facial expression.

"Im fine." I say, sternly. George tenses at my words. I feel bad, but am to emotionless to do anything. I get up and head outside. I get in the yeti. Maybe I just need to go for a drive. I plug my phone in and play the sad songs that I love.

I drive to the outskirts of Hollywood and let myself be engulfed in the music. I end up reflecting on my whole life. I remeber in highschool when I couldnt play for my football team for a year. I had to streach all of practice. The worst year of my life.

If I got through that I can get through this. Right? But this is diffrent. This is the girl I love. And Ill never get to be with her again. Football I was able to continue. I am stuck without Alex for the rest of my existence.

Guys thank you so much for being patient with me! I have had a crazy two weeks! Sorry for a short chapter, I thought that yall would want a short chapter over nothing.
In theese past two weeks, my dog ran away, and came back, I had finals, I still have more finals, last night my homework was due at 12pm and my friend and I worked on it I had two sheets to do, she knew the answers, so we were switching back and forth struggling to get it done. But we did it at 11:59 with 30sec left!
I also had a choir concert, hockey game to watch, sleepover, bunch of mental health crap, etc.
But anyways thanks for the support guys I love you!

-Marie
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