Complete 《《 Logan Paul Fan Fic *Discontinued*

T W E N T Y S I X

The days drag by slower and slower and each night I get more and more restless. In the past week I have gotten six hours of sleep total. Not because I am busy, Im just depressed. I continue to upload, and hangout with my friends. I dont want to frustrait them with my sadness so I hide it.

Living without Alex for over two months. Its early June now. I miss going to the beach with her. I miss being in her presence. It all leads back to me. Me being an idiot.

The day drags on as per ussual, I try to seem excited, but I have no energy left in me. Dinner time comes around, and I eat quickly. Telling Brendon I have enough footage for the vlog, I leave to go to my room. The truth was I just wanted to stop working and be alone. I have no motivation for anything anymore. The only reason I take care of myself is so that my friends dont question anything.

I enter my room, and Maverick flys into my shoulder. He steps up onto my finger and I lay back on my bed.

I hear a knock at my door and reluctantly allow Evan into my room. I sit up on the edge of my bed. Evan looks up at me crossing his arms.

"Hmm?" I hum.

"Whats up with you?"

"What do you mean?"

"The past two months you just seem diffrent... like your slowly getting worse,"

"What do you mean by diffrent?"

"I dont know, just like, your acting diffrent like... not as energetic," I stay silent.

"Its Alex isnt it," He says. I gaze at the ground embarrassed to confess it. Finaly I nod my head slightly. Evan reaches his short arms out for a hug.

Alexs POV

Two months. Two f*cking months. I cant believe I have been keeping myslef alive without him for two. Months. I miss him more than I have ever missed anyone. And just to think I am the reason we are no longer together. He would never want to get back with me now. Not after what Ive done.

Ive been staying in my friends houses, but Ive decided it would be best if I went back to Kentucky. Be back with my family. My dog, my brothers, my parents, reunite with childhood memories.

Although my music career is just starting up, I need to take care of my mental health. I need to relax back in Kentucky.

•••Back in Kentucky (a week later)•••

"Alexis Rose!" My mom greets throwing her arms around me. My dad is close after her, with my brothers. I havent seen them in forever.

I hug my mom as I feel the sweet Kentucky summer air consume me. I hug my dad and then my two brothers, wich ends in a wrestle. Just like when we were little.

We head inside and I get attacked by our mastiff, Mouse. He is so huge he pushes me to the floor. I laugh, scratching behind his ears, and taking in the smell of the house.

I leave my family downstairs and head up to my old room. Not one thing out of place. I smile and set my bags where I always put my backpack. Mouse comes into my room afterwards and begs to be pet.

After my long flight I got very hungry, I head back downstairs to find mom had my favorite-homeade pizza! I missed this. We all cooked our own and sat down for dinner. They ask my questions about California and how Ive been.

"So how are you doing without that guy... Logan," Andrew starts. Everyone looks at him and gives him a face. Aaron nudges his shoulder harshly.

"Its fine guys," I speak up. "Im doing okay," we are all silent, and I know no one wanted to go further in this conversation.

"Hows your new album coming?" My dad breaks the silence.

"It was going pretty great, we were ahead of scedule, and I love all of the songs,"

"So what happened?"Andrew changes the subject back to Logan. It feels good to talk about him though. Ever since we split anytime I have a thought about him I juat push it out of my mind. Now looking at what I feel, its relieving.

"Well, Logan and I split, wish was... it took a toll on my mental health, and then living from place to place, and finaly deciding to come here," I tell, each word making my pronunciation slower.

"We never got to meet him," Aaron started.

"He was really sweet," I looked down at my pizza."He is the most light-hearted, kind, funny, sweet, hard working person I have ever known. He always has energy no matter where he was or how much sleep he got. He loves to adventure and do spontaneous things. Yet, through all of his craziness he could be sweet, and kind. He would bring me food, and take me on romantic-" I find myself rambling off, and stop. "Sorry,"

"You are fine sweetie. You can tell us anything," my mom puts her hand on mine.

"Why did you guys split?" Andrew butts in again. Everyone gives him the look but I answer anyway.

"We both were swamped with work and barely saw eachother, and I think Logan must have gotten sick of the lack of attention I gave him. He ended up hooking up with one of our best friends. I shouldnt have broken up with him but, I did," I grew quiet.

"So you miss him?"my mom asked gently.

"Yeah," I feel tears brew in my eyes just at the thought of him. I dont want my family to see my tears.

I check my clock and it is already 10pm. I tell my family I am tried, and head up to bed. After brushing my teeth, and getting changed I flop onto my bed. I do miss Logan. I ponder for a second.

Opening my messages I scroll way down to find Logans name. I start to text a message, but delete it. I do this a few more times being undesisive. Maybe I shoukd just call him.

The thoughts that run through my head contradict eachother, but I decided to call him. As the phone rings I shuffle in my bed nervously. What am I going to say?

Hey Guys! I have left yall at a cliff hanger yet again! Oops.....

But once again thanks for being patient with my uploading, and if you havent yet, go check out my new book "Shhh..." it is a Grayson Dolan fan fic!

Also, I had a four day weekend this week, so I tried to get ahead in this book, so for the next three or four weeks I shouldnt be late on an upload...hopefuly. lol.

Also not sure if I came up with a publishing date, but the official one is Sundays!

Thanks as always for reading! You guys mean so much to me, I wish I could express it through words.

~Marie