Collections of Poems&Songs Volume One

PROMPT: WRITE ABOUT YOUR DNA... "I GOT..."

I've got meth in my DNA

I've got hurt in my DNA

I've got alcoholism in my DNA

I have abandonment in my DNA

I've got questions in my DNA

I've got a brother in my DNA

I've got death in my DNA

I've got bad in my DNA

I've got love in my DNA

I have art in my DNA

I have tragic beauty in my DNA

My DNA holds the very nucleotides

That explain why my grandfathers abandoned my parents

My DNA holds the very nucleotides

That hold the key to breaking alcoholism in my family

My DNA holds the very nucleotides

That guide my art and words to make portraits

My DNA holds the very nucleotides

That string out all the hurt I wil go through

LIKE MY MOTHER AND HER MOTHER BEFORE ME

LIKE MY FATHER AND HIS FATHER BEFORE ME
I

HAVE

THE SAME

D
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A

That calls me to the allure of danger

It pulls my fingers towards the blades

My mother did it, she still does

It tells me that's who I am

I AM THE RESULT OF AN ALCOHOL INDUCED CODEPENDENCY SPRINKLED WITH ABUSE AND FALSE PROMISES

My DNA holds the false love between two people

So blinded by their past

My past

To see that even though their DNA was compatible enough

To make two children

They didn't divide evenly

I GOT THE BAD CURSES

I GOT THE GENERATIONAL CURSES

That allow my brother to succeed

I have the DNA of an alcoholic

Of a schizophrenic

Of a drug addict

Of an incomplete adult

Of an abuser

Of a victim

THAT IS WHO MY DNA SAYS I AM

So why am I beautiful?

Why does my boyfriend tell me he loves my eyes,

When they are the eyes of a man who had the audacity to hit

The woman he claimed to love

To hit

THE ONLY DAUGHTER HE EVER HAD

The daughter who stared back at him with his own eyes at 7 years old

My DNA wrote it from the beginning

It gave me the ability to look at my parents and see who I was meant to be

I got pain in my DNA

I got hurt in my DNA

I got selfishness in my DNA

I got lies in my DNA

I got myself

In my DNA