Therapist

Chapter 21 〰 A New Lifestyle

Lia's POV

"Hey.. is it okay if I join you?"

I was lifeless. My weak body was around everywhere, but my mind was somewhere lost.

I wasn't sane at all, and I don't think I  will ever be until my biggest problem so far is solved.

Three whole weeks.

It's been three whole weeks of torturous, sleepless nights. Hallucinations and screams every single day. Nightmares and tears every single night.

"Earth to Lia?"

I whipped my head towards Andrea before she pointed slowly towards my left. Ted was standing with a tray, his blonde hair sticking everywhere, with his weak body ejecting nothing but faintness.

And I thought my state could never be duplicated on anyone else.

"Of course," I smiled weakly, watching his worried frown turn into a relieved, little smile. "How have you been?"

"Okay, I guess," he shrugged lightly before diverting his lazy eyes from me. His orbs locked with Andrea, and I immediately stopped watching the pair of see through screens, about to erupt feelings.

I can never look too much into anybody's eyes.

"Hey."

Andrea smiled shyly as he shook her hand. "Hi. I'm Andrea."

"I'm Ted, it's nice to meet you."

And just like that, I drifted back into my place...one where I'd daydream about seeing Alexander again, about talking to him.

I couldn't cope without him, but I only knew that the moment I lost him, and goddamn how stupid that was of me.

I got way too attached to let go, I got way too knotted to him to be cut off.

But it wasn't his fault. It can never be when a fuck up like me enters his life, or when a drunk soul like mine realizes my need towards him only after he lets me go.

He left my entire surroundings dull and lifeless, just like my soul. The atmosphere around me was to anonymous to care about...I was too oblivious about everyone's shock about Ted coming back, too absentminded about the eerie stares towards our union.

"There you are," I jumped in my seat at the sudden hand gesture.

"Jeez!"

"Sorry," Jackson chuckled lightly making me smile, a lot more relaxed now, "It wasn't intended."

His large hands left my shoulder to sit beside me, giving me a light kiss on the cheek.

The fact that I am currently surrounded by three people is mind blowing ... and yet I don't feel safe.

"It's good to see you again, Ted."

My body flinched in fear of Ted's reaction, but he nodded at him nonetheless, proceeding his conversation with Andrea.

"Are you free after school?"

"Yes," I smiled softly as he held my hand.

Despite my state, I try my best to spend most of my time with Jackson. After all, he doesn't deserve a sad, mentally ill girlfriend whom spends her entire day crying, reading books and listening to sad rock music.

"Cool. We could go out on a date. How about a movie?"

"I'd love that," I leant forward, kissing his cheek softly, my face burning in shyness.

God, please save me from my uncontrollable actions.

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"The movie was awesome," I bit my lip, looking up at him as we walked out of the theater.