Therapist

Chapter 19 〰 Stollen Kisses

Alexander's POV

"Is it wrong? Am I wrong? I- honestly I give up. I can't even stand having him too close to me without-"

"Lia! Girl, calm the hell down!"

This was all too frustrating for my state...I couldn't function properly anymore with this one, hell piece of sweet cupcake of a girl trying to tell me that kissing her boyfriend didn't feel the way she thought it would.

My attraction towards her had the same principles of the moon's gravity towards Earth.

Jackson was planet Pluto.

The kiss I gave her had every single emotion shocking her lips from mine...what I never realized was due to me giving her such dosage, her kiss with Jackson turned out to be, well, planet Pluto..again.

But I couldn't contain my feelings for her...I was overpowered during that kiss.

"I think I'm stressing way too much,"she sighed making me bite my lips, laying back on the bed.

"You think? Look, princess...you're not going to be Jackson's princess until he earns your trust."

"It's not intentional...I just panick around-"

"You don't panic around me," I cut her off, feeling her uneven breaths making me furrow my eyebrows. "Why is that?"

"I-I don't know...I guess I just feel safe around you."

My heart was swelling nonstop by this moment... safe. The only word I had to hear from her to get my cheeks burning red and my heart pleading to be free from the cuffs some scientist decided to call ribs.

I stopped talking, stared at the ceiling and imagined how my life would be complete if she ever let me in and granted herself. I wanted to be her safe place, a place where every ounce of stress fades away and no harm could ever be caused..my desire to mend her broken heart overpowered my eagerness to put a finger on her mental syndromes.

"Alex?" She whispered making me sigh frustratedly.

"Do you want to come over?"

"Right now?"

"Yes," I bit my lip, getting up to slip on a shirt and collect my keys. "I'm coming to pick you up. Stay over tonight at mine. Your father isn't home anyways."

"Okay..I can't deny I need company tonight," her word made me smile sadly..if only she knew I needed her just as much as she feared loneliness.

"I'll be there in five," I informed her, already on my way to her house. She hummed, before saying her temporary goodbyes and left me in my deep, dark thoughts.

Ones that felt like a huge amount of nervousness, guilt and fear thrown at my chest all at once.

I was tired of being stressed...tired of the lack of peace I've had inside me.

I wanted this girl way too badly to cope with helping her get over her shyness to be with another boy. I wanted to treat and free her from the mental illness cuffs and embrace her forever...I wanted to show her the huge space inside my heart that was long empty, driving me sad for years until I found her...realizing that god had saved this spot for her.

But life was never of good luck, and I still couldn't get her to be with me to fill my emptiness and let me fill hers.

I parked beside her house, honking twice to see her come out ... and goddamn.... I had a feeling she was trying to murder me with that mini, leather, tight skirt, a lace, red bralet with only a thin, see through scarf wrapped around her arms.